Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to one and all! 

Off to Albie road, whoop whoop!

The most awesome sister anyone could ever ask for.

How much do I miss her?

Recent events in time.

So i've been thinking I haven't included many photos on my blog for a really long time so i'd thought i'd post a few of recent events:

Our 'Christmas day' with Stokesy, Abby, Adam, Damo, Cags and Peplow so say bye to the first three going off to Thailand + the world for christmas:

It was a great day, however, I got a little too drunk a little too quick. Feel asleep in front of elf and I am actually ashamed to say I couldn't eat much Xmas dinner because I was afraid I might throw so instead sat and tried to sober up without trying to give too much away. We played the sticky post-it on your head name guessing game, (Obviously that's the official term..!) and eventually I got Gordon Ramsay but Abby was the undisputed champion of worst guesser ever even with the most clues. We said she had a Donkey friend, was green, was animated and she STILL did not get Shrek. My god.

Recent outing to Tiger Tiger, girls night with my sister and my sister in-law before Abs went to Thailand:

We were saddo's and went out after X Factor, spent the entire night in Tiger Tiger which was about 4 bars in one! No need to go anywhere else really. Horrendously expensive drinks though - £4.70 for a cider! We danced for hours and it was soooo fun. A weird man followed us around, that wasn't soooo fun. I am very much looking forward to Damo's wedding, whoop whoop! I had about 4 drinks spilled on me this night and then for a change I knocked somebody's drink out of their hand, I felt bad but with those prices I wasn't offering to buy another one! Haha!


Lucy's 25th Birthday celebrations at Little Johnny Russell's dressed as 1970's:
From left to right; Dawn, Robbie, Me, Mike, Edwina, Lucy, Caroline, Fiona and Amy. I tried to be a little 'hippy'ish but I had to don a '1970's' necklace just incase people though I was 80's and stuck to the afro people all night so's to avoid confusion! Lol! Got home about 2am last night and ate some savoury muffins, got a hiding from Mum this morning as apparently they were suppose to be breakfast - uh oh!





SCF Christmas Party! Loving what Tracey is doing to Mike, hahaha. Was a bit of a shite night in all honesty but we made our own fun. I'm looking forward to Wednesday for Christmas Chiquitos! Olay!

Nev.

Bo

I've had a headache for the last 12 hours and an advert for some shit trance music is not helping. KOL have just done 'Use Somebody' on Channel 4, momentary break from the headache.

Had quite a good weekend, went to Salisbury for drinking session on Friday which was an experience. Had a good time in Whetherspoons and I actually can't remember if we went anywhere else other than a shit nightclub. Although it was made good by some ridiculous dancing. £9.90 for two drinks was not fun. Went on a death ride on the way home listening to Kings of Leon and singing very loud in a car full of people I didn't know, except Kurt who was actually asleep/passed out. Saturday morning wall full of bad moods an feeling like death.

Went to Southampton shopping yesterday and got quite a bit of my Christmas goodies. Still need to get gifts for Caroline, Dad, Green Grandparents. Abby and Adam will wait until the new year as not much point getting anything now for them. They set off yesterday at 5pm from Nannys, I lost Dad for a really long time. I came in yesterday and the TV was on, laptop open, phone on the bed except he was literally no where to be seen in the house. Phoned Jan, he wasn't there so thought he might be over at Nanny's saying bye to Abby so I drove all the way over to Waterlooville and he wasn't there. Got back and thought i'd try next door, luckily he was there and since I was so worried he treated me to a curry! Not sure that's the best reason for treating someone to a curry but it was nice to spend some Daughter/Father time together. Even if it has been him moaning about how he's got 'man flu' and as a result he's not even up for going out to get a Christmas tree today. I don't actually think there is anything wrong with him he sounds fine!

Today I need to pop to Sainsburys and possibly go to town as I really can't be bothered to be Christmas shopping reallyyyyy near to Christmas. Want to get it all done.

Pompey are officially up for sale but we've had assurance from current owner he's not selling to just anyone, he wants to make sure they have ambition about the club and carry on with the new ground plans. Loved Sacha, gutted he's going! Oh well, on to bigger and better things, I hope.

Bought MGMT and first KOL album yesterday for a tenner in HMV. Bargain!

Bop to the beat of the Radio!

Soooooooooo tired. I actually quite like the feeling of tired when you know you can go to sleep. I'm going to sleep so well tonight, id it a bit wrong i'm really excited about sleep? I think so. I hope tonight's sleeping turns out better than yesterdays. While I thought it was a nice sleep, I went to bed freezing cold with full length PJ's on, woke up around 2am to find I was now in only trousers and without top. God knows what happened, I don't remember removing it but somehow it made its way onto the floor. I hate when I can't remember doing things, freaks me out a little!

I bought some excellent nail varnish today from Barry M, it was 3 for 2 on all products so got some shimmer stuff and an eye shadow to boot, whoop whoop! I'm looking forward to Christmas shopping on saturday with Kurt and Becca, it shall be grand, I have to really try hard not to buy anything for myself because I went Christmas shopping in town on Saturday and ended up buying myself a top, a pair of shoes and a pair of jeans. Gift wise, all I bought was a book for Nanny. Epic fail on the shopping trip.

Not many plans this weekend, going to chill I think! May be going on a little trippity trip to London on the 20th which will undoubtedly be soooo fun! In the meantime I may be taking a trip to salisbury for some alcoholic fun, whoop whoop.

Bad Monday, hope Tuesday is better. Hope Mills is feeling better after her coughing fits this morning, she didn't sound too clever and to be frank, (or Alan) - I don't want whatever it is that she has.

I am super pissed off at the people who have seen KOL tonight! In honour of KOL I took an extra long drive around Southsea after dropping Gilbert home and listened to all of 'Because of the Times'. It was legendary KOL fest in my car.

G'night.

Boxing Day November 23rd 2008

What a quality day with the family it's been. After the excellent Christmas Day last weekend at Damo's it was time for Boxing Day this week. Proper cold meats and mash! Mum whipped up a Banoffee pie too, my god it was almost TOO good.

We've played Scatergories; Nanny was actually the best partner to have for this. "We could have had Ardvark for this, OR Ant Eater!!!" - Er..yes Nan, if the letter was 'A'. As it was, the letter was 'W'...Priceless. We also did some shit pub quiz DVD which was actually quite fun. I've eaten enough cheese to feed an army and now feel a little sick but it was totally worth it. Work tomorrow, booooo.

Went to footy with Dad yesterday and we ended up a 2-2 draw with Hull. Glen Johnson scored an absolute BEAUTY! It's a shame it wasn't the match winner. We were unlucky not to take all three points, oh well. Better luck Thursday against AC MILAN - not! Who knows, we could pull something out the bag against a team that has been European Champions and is one of the best teams in the world if not THe best team in the world. Hmmmmmm!

Just before footy I let Dad park my car as we had to park in the most ridiculous place ever. (Who am I kidding, I just can't park.) Anyway, we're in position and he's pulled my handbrake up like a flipping Elephant and whoa there goes my handbrake cable! Yes yes, it probably would have broken sooner rather than later but STILL! I blame him entirely. Hmph. Trip to Damo's tomorrow!

Friday was shittest Friday i'd had in a long time I think I went to sleep about 10pm.

The fam went out dressed as Duracell Bunnys for Kev's birthday bash on saturday night. Theme was TV Adverts and aside from Adam's AWESOME Pepperami attempt, I think we looked pretty quality and only a few others rivalled us on effort. Pics on facebook for all to see, we have no shame! (Except Caroline who wants to untag herself from all photos...)

Have a sore lip, damn cold weather. YES COLD WEATHER!

pU deF, yletelpmoC. SREKCUS, deaR t'naC

I thought a bird shitting on my car was suppose to be good luck? Obvs not. England did win, alas this was not the luck I needed.

I'm going to be a Duracell bunny on Saturday, gash. Friday is going to be fun, doing FUCK ALL. Flippin' great. How shit do I feel at this current moment on a scale of 1 to 10? About 11. Although it could be worse, 12 or something. Gonna see Kate during the day because I have the day off which is sent from heaven. I can't wait for a lay in.

Officially the worse blog this year.

Bye.

It's been nice.

So basically it's Friday. Which basically means it's the weekend. Basically, yeah.

It has been a fun-filled 5 days. Well, I say 'fun-filled', not sure if those are the right words exactly but they've certainly been filled with something. For those that are interested it went as follows:

Monday - My god my memory is really lacking a few brain cells. I can't even remember. Gimme a minute....Jesus Christ on a bike how could I forget what I did on Monday? THE MIGHTY BOOSH! It was an absolutely bangin' show. Noel Fielding is strangely attractive, probably one of the most facially challenged men i've ever seen but there is SOMETHING about him. My face hurt from laughing so much after the show and it definitely made me want to see the boosh again. For sure! After Boosh theatrics Adam realised he'd left his key in the car so we had to break into the camper car. Bending the door back and me trying to fit my chubby arm in to get the lock has left me with a bruise. Fun all the same though, that car in indestructable.

Tuesday - Vicki answered the phone sounded very odd and a little upset so I raced down there to save the day. Turns out Ben is a prick still (yeah, like how I said still.) Apparently she has the worst taste in men ever. I never see her cry yet she was balling her eyes out and the words 'I love him' were escaping her mouth yet again. He's taking up perfectly valueable human space on this Earth, I do not see the need for him. Anyway, I took her out for our weekly trip to the Slug and Lettuce, others are convinced it's a date but we know best. Sat down with a pint and we talked it out, although fairly sure we didn't come to any sort of conclusion, except he's a cockend and she's also a cockend for going back to him ever time. We played 'itbox' - I say 'it box' very lightly as it was fake itbox. Had some quality games that we found though; 'hide and seek' which was a bit like the generation game for twats. We failed at this and moved on to 'violent veg' - so violent that the sweetcorn was swearing at us. How fucking rude. At this point Vicki made me laugh and cider came out my nose. This was not fun. Saw Skinny for a momentary moment and this was most pleasent.

Wednesday - On way home from work and Becca calls me, I answer very quickly to say i'm driving and i'll call her back and just hang up before she's had a chance to say anything. I got to Cartek and she's calling me again, this time I answer and she sounds flippin' dreadful. Turns out Steve is the cock we always thought he was and after a good 2 and a half years they've broken up. I won't dilvuge actions as this is Becca's shizzle and i'm sure she won't appreciate it but words fai lme when it comes to this man. Apparently 27 years of age, apprently not though, apparently 12. Yeah, apparently. APPARENTLY. This is putting me off men, i'm quite enjoying being single. Although it gets awfully lonely when there's no one to stay with once in a while. this is why Vicki and I have to go on date's together. We are/were the only singletons ish. I'm not counting Ben as a boyfriend to Vicki as he's more of a piece of shit that gets stuck to her occasionally. So long story long, I took Bec to see Kate's new Puppy who is absolutely quality, pee's on the newspaper and everything. This cheered her up immensely and she was laughing a whole lot at Pub quiz last night which was nice to see.

Thursday - Pub quiz! Picked James up, (I wish I could think of a cruel nickname for him as he calls me Grem along with the rest of the old school crew, grrr.) picked Becca up, picked Vicki up and THEN went to pub quiz at The Green Post. There was a lot of picking up before hand, but I don't mind, ya know, cos i'm nice. My car tried to cut out when it was just James and I but I taught it a lesson and we soon had it going again. We came 4th in the pub quiz which was actually our best spot yet I think. Some keeno old people next to us tried to get us disqualified. They laughed at me for putting 'tipple' as a type of glass. I don't fucking know do I! Better to put a shit made up answer than nothing at all, then they had the cheek to put the answer "Russia OR Poland" for the question "Which countries largest outsource is vodka?" and "Fosters or XXXX" for "Which beer is most famous in Australia?" Yeah, like you can put TWO answers and hope one of them is right. Fuckwits, I marked them wrong obviously. After the music was in the 50's and 60's and they got a bit quiz happy with this as they were about 50+ we just put "Wasn't born" for most answers, which didn't leave them with the best of looks on their faces because they probably realised how unfortunate it was that all they had to look forward to was getting a few pub quiz answers correct on a Thursday night. I got the Dusty Springfield track though, whoop whoop! We made James put the Mother Pucker lipgloss on and was actually LOLing when he couldn't get it off. I dropped everyone home and Skinny and I went for a short drive. I say Short, I think I saw most of Portsmouth. It was fun to say the least, I learnt about mice and all sorts. Educational, if you will. Mmm. :)

Friday - This is today and all I know is that the girls are coming over tonight and we're going to chat and eat some form of food, - I hope Chinese. Where would I be without these girls?

Conference call. Laters.

What exactly are you looking for?

Family Guy Season 7 is the best way to spend a Sunday. Until I get bored sitting in bed when it's 11:52...yes this has already happened.

Friday was boring I had a 'nap' until 8:30pm. What an absolute loser from loserville. I got in bed, in my pajamas but thought that was so tragic I got back out again and me and my hat went to the Hampshire Rose with the parents to watch the last bit of a band that was playing there and then I did the good deed if dropping them back to Kev and Sarah's, went home and got back in the pajamas to bed.

Woke up late on Saturday, went shopping and got some rad new jeans which took me AGES to find. I went to H&M, Republic, Warehouse, Miss Selfridge and even New look (Which we all know is shit for Jeans) before my eyes were opened to River Island and I found some excellent dark with turn ups to more or less actually replace the old ones with a hole in the bum! Result. Took a trip to Waterlooville Argos with the Mother and to the Grandmother's. She wasn't impressed with my hat. Both I and the hat were very hurt.

Went to Trafalgar, Vicki joined me at the last minute to have a drink for Tasha's Birthday and then we moved onto Albert road. Had one drink in the goose which was ultimately chav central so I left and went to Fat Fox, ran in the pissing down rain the wrong way before I realised it was the other way, finally got in Fat Fox and Damo says 'we're in LJR's' so again I had to leg it in the rain - stopped off for a pitstop underneath some sort of shelter and then took the plunge and ran across the road. Had a great time in LJR's with Abs, Ads, Cags, Damo, Peplow and Stokesy. Saw Jay from Pageone which was random. Took some shocking photos and danced to some good tunes, good night! Peplow has been untagging himself from pics on facebook - woman!

Sunday is ridiculously boring. Although Family guy is actually amazing. Could it be that Stewie has actually killed Lois? I'm not sure i'm liking this! I don't think it could be true...this remains to be corrected.*

It's 12:32 and i'm still in bed. This is nor productive or healthy, I am going to have a bath and put some clothes away. It's almost too much to handle.

*Lois isn't dead. I knew it.

Super cool thought...not

Super shit day, (Except pub quiz was funny as!).
Super shit week, (Except learning to let go and fireworks being fun).
Super shit Friday coming up, (Unless something decides to happen tomorrow night.)

I need to stop shopping. I'm fairly sure i'm in the minus this month already...ssssh.

So, very, tired, so, am, going, sleep, now, bye.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Hallowe'en.

Tomorrow is Hallowe'en and i'm looking forward to dress up! Bought some blood, some white & black face paint and some crap top that I can cut to shreds, whoop whoop! Zombie Emily is definitely the way forward, (Admittedly for one night only...).

Going to Caroline and Lucy's (Abby's old digs) for a rad cool party, then depending where the night takes me I think i'm going to chaos for the second time ever. I really hope it's nothing like the first time considering that was the worst hangover I have ever had in my entire life and was throwing up for longer than I care to remember and almost got sacked. Not the best of days. Also hoping other people are dressed up/zombiefied or i'm gonna look like a tit, lol!

Saturday i'm attending some thing at the golf club with Ben and some others. Kylie's brothers sisters dogs friends sons something or rather. But think we're leaving there in favour of scandals or some other awesome place, should be fun unless it goes exactly like last time and I hit my head, fall over, freeze to death and my feet fall off. (Those last two aren't strictly true.) Sunday i'm chilling and doing fuck all unless someone pops up with a better suggestion!

Pub Quiz tonight, let's hope 'mush and peas' can win tonight! LOL!

Run forest run!

Well well well. What an eventful weekend.

Friday was weird, Becca and I went to the fleet for one drink to say bye to someone who was leaving pageone/listening co. Drove back up to the Red Lion and had another drink there. Ben had been texting me and was pissed off to be staying in on a friday night. Previously I had tried to get Becca to go out out but she was having none of it and then I realised I needed my car for the morning so we didn't do anything besides pub. She had work at 8am next morning so I took her home then Ben suggested coming back into town, going to scandals, on him. I was/am broke so it sounded like a plan although i'm not sure how I feel about him paying for absolutely everything - I feel a little like I mugged him! Told him next time is on me, apparently that's not allowed though!

I got half way there, forgot my phone, had to go back. Didn't actually get out until about 11pm, went straight to Scandals and wasted no time before getting a straight shot of Vodka down me, which may I add was not my choice and I en devour never to do it again because it was actually sick. Then despite asking for a shot of archers, she gave me a shot of after shock. Not sure how that's the same but I didn't argue. Danced the night away until about 2am - my feet were actually killing me, Ben tried to make me run but that didn't happen and I totally just fell on my back in the street. Humiliating to say the least, then I was offered a piggy back to save my feet which resulted in half the street seeing my pants and some random shouting 'Black panties!!' Oh. God. Some nice ladies commented on how nice my dress was, and some bloke said it was 'fine' and I take it he meant you know the cool ghetto sense and not just 'alright'. I don't think i've ever received so many compliments, was very nice! The lady asked me if I had a pen; firstly - who the hell brings a pen out with them? And secondly how hard is it to remember ASOS.com?

We taxi'd back to Ben's house and watched some Alan Carr, I then totally fell asleep and woke up a number of hours later in my dress, tights, everything. Uncomfortable to say the least but absolutely no chance of me removing any clothing! I also realised I was taking up the entire bed and he was squished against the wall, soz!

Saturday, I had to pretty much wake up and leave which I felt a bit bad about but Caroline was comign to get me to try on Bridesmaid dress! - Which was actually really nice I am so excited for their wedding! The invitation idea is the best idea i've ever heard invitation wise (Not that i've heard many...)! I went to see Nanny yesterday and then hung out at Cartek for a bit. Went home and attempted to eat something which didn't go particularly well. Went to Kate's for X Factor watching, then I was going to get Abby and Adam from Damo's but they weren't ready to be picked up so I went to LJR's met Ben, Kylie and Zak and spent a little time there. After, went to Shirins to pick up the Siblings. Caroline was drunk which was amazing, I love it when she's drunk. Forgot to mention to Damo about Del and Steve...must remember for monday!

Today will consist of going to watch the Great South Run, the weather looks pretty awful i'm hoping it's going to clear up or else Adam is going to come through the finish line with some sort of frost bite/Pneumonia, not great!

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention the small fact that Harry Redknapp has done it again!! What a fucking judas prick. Good luck at spurs you fat faced piece of shit. NOT. We're well and truly fucked now. Woohoo.

I'm gonna be somebody!

Today has been average but it's the weekend so I will forgive the day for being average.

Going to pub tonight, managed to get Abs to lend me some money cos I am literally b.r.o.k.e. Becca and I are going to walk there and undoubtedly walk back a little worse for wear. She doesn't drink much these days so my aim is to get her so she can barely walk, woohoo! I'm writing this to blatantly waste some time because I want to go home but I think it's a little too early to leave just yet.

Tomorrow i'm going to try on bridesmaid dressed with Caroline...:-/ More thoughts on that later because I'm wonder how i'm going to look, oh dear! Caroline assures me dresses look better on than on the hanger. I've seen a picture and it's a pretty nice dress in all fairness, it's just the 'coral' colour i'm a little sceptical about! Sunday Abs and I are gonna go check out the Great South Run, I want to go because 'watching it' is basically a form of exercise in my book and Abs wants to go to see if Adam beats her time, which is obviously going to happen unless his ankles fall off or summit. Which isn't actually as impossible as it might sound, lol. Next weekend will be awesomes, i'll have a fuck load of money (not to waste...) and halloween party is going to be rad, hopefully.

I'm completely feeling good about any current situations which may have been around. After Monday I thought my drunken outburst to Adam was a huge mistake but it actually paid off with him finally telling me how he feels. Made me lol, could have had that conversation about 3 weeks ago - What is wrong with men? I feel totally more relaxed and getting back to going with the flow. Always best option.

Home time, ding ding!

Dollar a day

18:57 and it's almost time for first look hollyoaks, i'm such a chav. (Also not sure why but it's become compulsory to quote to time and random points in various blogs these days!)

Saw AGA on Sunday when me and Mec went for an exciting drive, dropped a CD into him and it was most lovely to see him. Unfortunately we had to leave because I was parked literally in the middle of the road! We parked up and went in Mec's friends house which was coincidentally 5 door up...! I had some 'High School Musical' cake (Which I appeared to choke on whilst everyone else laughed, crumbs down the wrong way!) and witnessed a bit of Independance day on the TV. We then drove to Mick's, - I discovered Mick was a multi-millionaire. Mec is a fountain of knowledge clearly.

Monday - see below blog, christ a goodish bad day. That makes no sense but I know what I mean.

Yesterday I had to take Damo and Ferris home and now the boot of my car is covered in dog hair after Ferris was going mental before we got in the car and then decided to refuse to sit down. Got to Damo's and Ferris decided to walk into someone elses house! I was in stitches as it then proved difficult to actually get him to come out. Stupid dog.

Silvio - ta for the blog comment! You sly old dawg.

Nev - Here's the mention that you long for!

Claire was in work today so only had to cover some of Kim's stuff. Did 2 BTV's which were fairly straight forward, totally winged Kim's one since I didn't even know what had happened! Bought home a CVT and image to do tonight so I can start a fresh tomorrow. What the fucking hell are the new billing cribsheets about? As if i'm going to check ESI for payment terms. Boring! I should probably hope nobody important from work reads this as i'll probably get my arse handed to me. Hmm...

This pasta hut thing is still pissing me off. It wasn't right last week and it's still not right this week! Probably the worst advertising move ever. Except for when Sunny Delight turned a girl orange, that was a pretty bad move on their part. I miss Media Studies, probably the only subject I was any good at, at college. Although completely worthless given the job i'm doing now!

I need to get halloween costume sorted! Zombie Zombie Zombie! Party at Abby's old digs should be pretty much amazing as we're going to sacrifice Mike! Unluckyyy!

St Hellier

Today has been odd. It got to about 2pm and I still felt like it was morning, it is not 10pm and I feel like it's about 7pm. This may have something to do with being slightly under the influence of alcohol at around 6pm. I came second in the bowling, not bad! I've been asleep for the last 2 and a half hours, I thought that was a bad idea since I wouldn't sleep tonight but i'm already tired again so I don't think i'll have much of a problem.

Thorpe Park was pretty ace, I wet on everything everyone else did, this must mean i'm over my fear of rides I think. Stealth was pretty awesomes, well worth queuing an hour and a half for a ride that lasts 14 seconds.

I'm in a semi hungover state at 10:02pm, not good. It's that crap that I can't be arsed to write anymore.

TING TING.

Omgzzzzzz. Hollyoaks! It's a little disturbing I find myself so interested in the biggest bunch of shit to ever exist on television, except for maybe those 'Injury Lawyers 4 U' adverts. Good God, seriously, does ANYONE actually call them for help? I don't think so. Oh no wait, Injury Lawyers 4 U have just been out done on the 'shit advert' front. 'Pizza Hut' have changed their name to 'Pasta Hut' - PASTA HUT. What a fucking stupid idea.

Am awaiting Vicki to text to say she is free from Hayling Island and ready to hang out for a bit, come onnnnn girl.

My god this really is horrendous but I can't take my eyes off it. Statue just fell on Niall, gutted. Tina is dead. Christ, now i'm depressed.

BO!

Nevilol is gay

Gayer than Graham Norton.

Whoop whoop!

Woohoo! Thorpe Park on Saturday is going to be rad. I'd quite like to by-pass the day and then just go on all the rides in the dark!

Check out Stealth kind of in the dark:

I'm actually too excited about this. Not sure how we're getting there, I think Adam has agreed to drive although not entirely sure as we haven't spoken much over the past week or more. Thorpe Park will be a good chance to spend some time together and perhaps actually realise whether he's actually interested or not! Since I think I should sort of assume he's not, but don't quite want to do that yet. If he's not then I don't quite know what happened considering it seemed quite good last week.

Been speaking to Ben tonight, I always, ALWAYS randomly bump into him on the the street and only ever say hi since I don't know him greatly but know him well enough to have a small conversation. I seem to be drunk whenever I see him and always give out massive hugs and an extra massive one considering the last time I saw him he bailed out some guy who was trying to buy me a drink with no money! Christ, that was embarrassing but I was pretty much the most wasted ever at this point so wasn't so embarrassing at the time. I think we're gonna go out drinking soon, maybe friday except I don't want to be throwing up on rides at Thorpey so probably not, or if so not a heavy one.

Damo mopped Cartek today and I sort of stood around, looking back I probably should have helped...hmm...bad sister! I'll try help more tomorrow! Sex and the City is on, women should not base their lives on this show, what a load of twaddle. This is only good for the soft pornographic scenes, obviously. Possibly not great to watch whilst my Mother is in the next room ironing my dress. Christ i'm tired, I hope tomorrow night will bring something to do. Staying in is rubbish.

How about a little less questions and a little more shut the hell up?

Am I wasting my time? I feel a bit empty, a bit fucked over, a bit mislead, a bit loved, a bit unloved, a bit lonely, a bit everything. Why is nothing ever simple? Why is it never okay to question anything because when you question stuff it makes it worse?

I wish someone would just tell me then I can either get over it or be happy that there still could be progression. Limbo is rubbish. And no, I don't mean the game. I am never normally this trivial, I hate being trivial, what the fucks happened? Remember when I didn't care about much? Yeah, that was great, can we go back to that? Cool.

"What you going to say to Police?" "I know you're address i'm coming to find you. My head is 7 ft wide, i'm going to step in your arse" Hahahah, amazing. Why have I never watched Phone Jacker before?

I am looking forward to Friday. Not sure what we're going to do, I hope it involves alcohol and laughing. Two of my favourite things. Tomorrow is Thursday, i'm gonna go see my lovely Grandmother and see about these 'shoes' she's got me. I say 'shoes' lightly as I have no idea what they're going to be like. Hmmmm. Update laters!

I watched Lucky Number Slevin whilst we were out of internets and TV channels tonight. What a quality film. I love it when you haven't really got a clue what's going on and then it all clicks into place, bam! Plus josh Hartnett is well nice to look at and Lucy Liu isn't bad if you swing that way. Mmmhmmm. I need to update my film collection or buy a DVD rack. The stack I currently have is obviously about to fall over. I bought some CD's to add to my collection today too. Spent £39, and got Editors - An End has a Start, Bloc Party - Silent Alarm, Kings of Leon - Because of the times, Mark Ronson - Versions, Kooks - Konk and Biffy Clyro - Puzzle. All very reasonable for £39 I think.

Phone Jacker, LOL.

Cool Hwhip.

(Lois walks in on Stewie torturing a bully)
Stewie: We're playing house...
Lois: But that kid is all tied up!
Stewie: Roman Polanski's house.

Meg (about Peter being retarded): I can never go to school again!
Stewie: Oh, yes, Meg, yes-yes yes, everything was going swimmingly for you until this. Yes, yes, THIS is the thing that will ruin your reputation, not your years of grotesque appearance, or your awkward social graces, or that Felix Ungerish way you clear your sinuses, no no no, it's THIS. Do you hear yourself talk? I might kill you tonight.

Guy on Airplane: Oh great, I always end up sitting next to a damn baby.
Stewie: What did you just say?
Lois: Stewie, stop fussing.
Stewie: Pipe down Lois. (Slaps guy on head.) Hey big man, turn around. Oh you can't hear me now. I was going to watch the movie, but forget it. For the next 5 hours, you're my bitch.

(Lois finds a note in Chris's pocket)
Lois: Huh, what's this? You know Stewie, Mommy doesn't usually read things out of Chris's pocket. She's more respectful than that.
Stewie: Whatever helps you sleep at night, bitch.

Stewie: It wasn't even about the eggs, really. Frankly, I like the yolks. I have no problem. There's always been a lot of tension between Lois and me. And it's not so much that I want to kill her, it's just, I want her not to be alive anymore. I sometimes wonder if all women are this difficult. And then I think to myself, 'My God wouldn't it be marvelous if i turned out to be a homosexual?'

Brian: You're drunk.
Stewie: You're sexy.

Stewie: Well, I'd love to stay and chat, but you're a total bitch.

Stewie: Hello, mother. I come bearing a gift. I'll give you a hint. It's in my diaper and it's not a toaster.

Lois: I'm gonna go get some oranges Stewie. Here, hold the rest of these bags for mommy."
Stewie: Oh, what brilliant parenting Lois. Leave a tiny infant with a plastic bag. You know I might asphyxiate myself just to teach you a lesson. Here I go. Just like that boy from INXS..(Stewie tries to put bag over top of his head.)
Stewie: I'm going to do it! (Tries to put bag over left side of his head then climbs into it and tries pulling it over his head.)
Stewie: BLAST! Good Lord Lois, either I was a c-section, or you're Wonder Woman!

Stewie: I was under the impression the name of the show was "Kids Say the Darndest Things," not "Old Black Comedians Never Shut the Hell Up."

Stewie: Oh hey lady. Hey, what's going on? How are you? Yeah, oh it's just me, Stewie, just being myself, ah yeah. Oh, oh well this here? Oh, it's just my package, yeah just ah just ah my package, God delivered it I signed for it the world keeps on spinnin', yeah.

Bill Cosby: Stewie, what do you think candy is made out of?
Stewie Griffin: Sunshine and farts! What the hell kind of question is that?!

Lois: Stewie why don't you play in the other room?
Stewie: Why don't you burn in hell?

Lois Griffin: Come on Stewie, don't be afraid. It's just water, it's not gonna bite.
Stewie Griffin: Shut up! I know it's not going to bite, stupid! What a stupid thing to say. You drown in it you moron! It doesn't have to bite you!

Stewie: You know what else is disgusting? (He farts and his right eye turns red.) Oh damn, I broke a blood vessel.

Stewie (in car with Brian, says to police officer): We met on the Internet. He lured me into the car with promises of candy and funny stories.

Stewie: What the hell is this?
Lois: Sweetie, that's tuna salad.
Stewie: Oh, is that what it is? Really? Because I could have sworn it was mayonnaise and cat food.

Stewie: If I choose to make stool in my pants right now, you're the only one here to change me. What do you think of that, hmm?
Brian: I'm not going to change you.
Stewie: What?
Brian: I said, I'm not going to change you.
Stewie: You can't be serious. Well, what if I make a fudgie? Well, I just won't. I just won't that's all. I just won't. Blast! I just did.

Stewie: What do you want?
Man in White: I want to get the hell out of here!
Stewie: Oh, I'm sorry, We're fresh out of that, but what I can give you is UNTIMELY DEATH!

Eliza: Ew, your breath smells like kitty litter.
Stewie: I was curious!

Little Asian Girl: Hey Stewie, do you want to complete our rainbow?
Stewie: Dear God, I've been adopted by a Benetton ad.

Why do I insist on getting wasted when I go out and proceed to make a massive fool out of myself? (Stopped on the family guy quotes now this is pure Green.)

Went to Scandals last night, got horrendously drunk. I think, THINK I may have called Adam a fair old bunch of times for moreorless no reason whatsoever. I think I also may have sent some incriminating texts. Haven't spoken to him today although i'm fairly sure there was minimal phone conversation before his battery died although I am actually not sure what was said. Probably me rambling on about something. Oh well! Perhaps I can apologise and he'll enlighten me on my antics tomorrow.

Claire disappeared somewhere, I think she may have lost us and gone home. Tried calling her but no answer. I got lost at some point in the night but managed to regain some life back after finding Caroline on the dance floor with some random men - of which I think I have some pictures on my camera. No idea who took them or who they are. Scandals was quality, definitely have to go there more often I think. Every song was amazing, they mixed Artic Monkeys into Vampire Weekend genius no? There were some horrendous men in there that thought they were awesome but clearly weren't and were only either relishing in the fact their wives had let them go out for a night or shamelessly trying to pull other women. Neither were attractive traits. D'ya know whatelse wasn't attractive? £5.20 for a double vodka and diet coke, you what?! Less than Tiger Tiger admittedly, but in Tiger Tiger you're not hyperventilating at the prospect of losing the will to breathe in the smallest space EVER. Aside from the struggle to breathe I think I must have danced non stop for around 3 hours, good job I didn't wear heels. I wore flats and my feet still hurt this fine evening. Worth it though, I think.

Mum has annouced to me that my GHD's 'may' not be actual GHD's and instead a botched job from ebay. This may explain why the 'ceramic' has chipped off and they don't work particularly well. I'm a massive snob, i'm the first to admit that. No wonder i'm single :-/ Okay i'm not a massive snob, just a little bit of a snob...

Footy was good today, totally beat Stoke 2-1. They were shit in all honesty. Had nothing going forward and I enjoyed a game for the first time in ages mostly because I could actually see it wearing the new glasses. I took them off mid way through the second half and I actually think it has impaired my vision even further, great! A big blur fest when they're off. Boooooo. Crouch scored one of the best goals i've seen at Fratton in ages, plus an over head kick from a 6ft 7 giant always has it's comedy value. Fuck, why is it only 20:47? I feel like I ought to be going to sleep but surely that is too early?

Monday tomorrow, - woop woop!? No.

Awesome.

Yes?

Has anyone ever thought it would be a good idea to make a shoe rack which holds more than 20 pairs of shoes? I don't think so considering mine is over flowing and it was more or less the only one I could find anywhere. Perhaps another idea for Dragon's Den. So far we have 24 hour curry house and campercar and now this. It's a shame I can't take credit for campercar, probably the best one although I did strangely feel like a curry on Sunday morning. Hmmm.

I have many questions, one is why does Madge from Neighbours appear to be in Emmerdale Farm? Another is why is it only 19:06? I feel like I got home about 5 hours ago.

Tomorrow is the day I officially become 4 eyes. Although someone told me today that a pair of glasses can do wonders for a woman's look - let's hope they're right!

Thorpe Park is officially booked and i've heard it's going to be rad. Some extra attractions for Halloween. I'm absolutely shitting myself about Stealth again but i'm pretty confident I won't be an absolute twat about going on it again and probably won't cry this time. Infact i'm gonna be a flippin' 'ard nut and make Cain go on it. He'll think I don't like him even more, it'll be fun. Rollercoasters in the dark, can't wait! I hear they hire random actors as well to scare you half to death, let's see how good they are!

An advert for 'Jamie's ministry of food' has just been on and a woman on there didn't know what boiling water looked like. How can you be that much of an absolute cock not to know what boiling water looks like? I mean where exactly has this woman been living? In a cave on rice cakes for the entirety of her life? My god.

My Mother is cooking some fabulous salmon risotto dish as I type, it's actually one of the nicest things aside from a chilli con carne ever made by the wonderful woman. My dress came, I thought it wouldn't since parcelforce are a bunch of dicks. Turns out the dress did arrive but Parcelforce are still a bunch of dicks. They didn't make anyone sign for it, and they also just left it at a neighbours house without even putting anything through my door to say 'We've left it a number....' Like I said, bunch of dicks.

Yeah.

Albert

What a quality weekend. Who knew wedding receptions could be so fun? Everything looked pretty great and it made me excited for Damien and Caroline's wedding even though I actually have some sort of part in that wedding which makes it slightly more scary. I'm gutted I missed Damo's speech but i've heard he did himself proud and bless him looking all dapper in his waist coat and pink tie!

Had a bit of a horrendous time getting there shamefully trying to reverse half the length of an entire road, failing miserably and giving up making Adam do the reversing. So THAT'S what men are for. I had often wondered. I got pretty shamefully drunk (Yeah I used shamefully twice in a paragraph, sue me.) and pretty much couldn't see straight again. Abby said 'That wasn't my sister there' - do they know me at all?! Perhaps not. I dragged Adam out to come get some sort of ticket for my car to leave it at the naval base and I couldn't even answer them when they asked my number plate. I actually don't even know my own number plate. L74 UVC - I now know it thanks to Damien.

Adam stayed over and well there is still a pint of water on the floor of my bedroom where we bought it up to stop us getting dehydrated in the middle of the night except I think we just bought it up and didn't actually drink anything from it. This may explain why I woke up with a mouth tasting like moth this morning. Not that I know what moth taste like, I imagine dry and not very nice though. Today was I love Albert Road day and it was okay, would have been better if I didn't feel slightly sick all day from hang over state. We won the footy which was always a bonus but it was not fun feeling a little ill and people jumping around making the stand shake, bleurgh. People were lucky I didn't barf on their shoes.

Anyway i'll leave it there with that lovely thought. I'll just add that i'm feeling pretty great even though I haven't a clue what's going on, people keep asking me, I keep saying I don't know, hahah. Why are people so interested?! Let's just see where it develops. I hope it develops. Hmm.

Make any joke you want!

So Hardival was pretty immense. The band were great and there was loads of awesome people there. Plus I beat Abby at fake Gladiators, and it wasn't because I 'carry more body weight' thanks Abby!

Adam turned up around 8:30 and locked his keys in his car, flippin idiot. We danced until god knows what hour, there are some incriminating pictures on facebook if anybody wants to see. Adam and I slept in what is now the infamous campercar. Two quilts, a sleeping bag and 5 pillows, awesome. I say awesome, but it was bloody freezing and I literally would have believed someone if they told me my feet had fallen off. Pretty much just spent Sunday watching Family Guy and doing nothing else, they way all Sundays should be spent!

Work has been shitter than shit. Quarter end is officially the worst thing ever and it doesn't help when I send emails and people just don't read them and then ring me and ask something i've already answered in an email. Argh!

Suppose to be going to see Pineapple Express tonight, they made superbad so I guess it can only be amazing.

Stranger than strange

"Why us?"
"Because you were home."

BECAUSE YOU WERE HOME. What the fuck?! This should not be a 15 certificate. I'm 21 and I haven't even seen it yet and it's scaring the bejesus out of me!

Happens, happened, happening, happenings.

I've actually come to realise that I can't actually write anything of personal value here anymore. That's a bit shit.

The last week has been odd, to say the least. I'm still not even sure what's happening, is anything happening?, What am I even talking about?, Do I even know? No, Emily I don't think you do.

I realised something tonight, - I fit stuff in like anything, all the time. That sounds odd. But I mean I do LOADS at work but I always have time for everything. How is this exactly? I could sit on facebook all day AND get everything else done. I think I must be super woman or something. How amazing would that be?

Southsea fest on saturday, I bought a ticket tonight. I really hope other join..! Mills says she wants to go but needs clearance from Rob - Who the hell gets clearance!? I suppose she does have Cain. Caroline should be coming and Lucy is going with her sister. I'm trying to get Abby and Ads to come, hopefully they will and perhaps the parents! Should be a good laugh, especially as it starts early! Wahey!

I watched My Name Is Earl tonight, just reminded me of the Ron Jeremy guy in the pub and it made me lol. I love Earl!

Bring on Friday!

Everything else is just...

"Memories are times we borrow, for spending tomorrow.

I came to this world with nothing, and I leave with nothing but love, everything else is just borrowed."

No YOU.

I was really looking forward to going out last night. It all went a bit tits up though. So we go to Kate's and have a few drinks, talk about Kate's sickening but cute new relationship and how they're totally in love after a week(sigh). Her flat is pretty much the raddest thing ever and we stayed there until around 10pm, then took a walk to Little Johnny Russell's. We had to stop along the way for Kate to go to the shop and some random men who can I just point out - I have no clue who they are and have never seen them in my life - started saying 'Oooh look at her minge'. Now that's pretty fucking disgusting coming from anyone let alone fat balding middle aged moron's. I didn't think too much of it and just told him he was gross and shouldn't say things like that to a lady. Then out of pretty much no where I get "Shut up you fat slut". I don't think anyone's ever been that rude to me and I just basically wanted to pound his face in with a spade.

Completely ruined might, well, partially.

Going for a meal today at the mead end - I think I might need a little more sleep before then though.

Ta-ra.

Afternoon nap

What is this wank weather we're having? I go away for a week to 37 degree heat and come back to..well..basically no heat whatsoever. Harsh is not the word.

Turkey was amazing. I think it was one of my favourite trips there. I had time to be alone and sit around doing nothing. I don't think I could sit around and do nothing for too long but it was certainly great for a week. Saw Nihat and it wasn't weird, which was nice. We had some nice times hanging out and watching TV with Turkish subtitles, he translated for channels that were turkish which was funny, hah. The parents and I went to the beach for a meal at the Belcekiz which was more amazing than I remember. Tomato and Mozarella Bruscetta, Garlic Chicken somethingorrather and I was way too full for dessert. We had a nice meal cooked by the Oran's at the Oran Apart - I don't think i've ever seen so much food on one table! They're the nicest family you'll ever meet. I can't wait to go back in June with the girls. Another week of doing nothing and sunning it.

Being home is rubbish. Saw Adam for the first time since we broke up couple of days ago, it was pretty much how I expected. Strange banter but mostly not that awkward and i'm sure i'll see him again soon.

I got a hair cut this morning, i'm getting a colour later and then going out in Albert Road later. I hope it'll be a good night with no rain and fun times.

Also, I have come to the conclusion Big Brother is the biggest joke on TV. (I know I probably should have stated this a while ago but last night topped it off) How did that boring sack of shit win? This is all I will say on the matter.

I have new shoessssssss.

Grasstennis ftw.

So, the weekend was AWESOME.

I saw so many bands and had so many fun times. Reading 2009 anyone?

I think my favourites were Foals, Wombats and Killers. Foals blew me away, I was watching them with Tom and he pretty much hates them so was a little hard for me to get into it but they were so good! Also I think we found worlds worst dancer whilst watching Foals, I have actually never laughed so much, he looked like a small boy who needed the toilet. It was pretty hard to stay with everyone all day and when you got lost there was almost no chance of meeting up again unless you went back to camp and they were there. So I watched Wombats by myself and it was amazing! I fucking love the Wombats, their set went way too fast for my liking though. Everyone was singing along to every one of their songs, I loved it! Vampire Weekend were on before Wombats and it was the first time i'd seen them. The sounds wasn't so good at the side but i'm pretty sure they were bloody awesome. 'Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey!'

Tom and I watched Biffy Clyro together, I didn't think they were as good as last year. Bands on smaller stages are sometimes better. I caught the end of We Are Scientists after I watched some of The Ting Tings, both were really good. I really wish they were on at different times because I would have liked to have seen both set fully. Bloc Party were a little disappointing, especially since last year they were really amazing. I carried on the laughing during Bloc Party which made it all better talking about hunting for bitches, and Kelle getting his cock out after he said 'Now time for a surprise'. Bahaha.

I watched half of Rage but I was by myself and wasn't really feeling it. I thought they sounded pretty amazing though but i'm not a die hard fan so I left. Saturday Tom and I watched the whole of the Killers, they were incredible. Brandon had the most dapper suit i've ever seen on! I think I love him a little bit. Before that was Alkaline Trio, I would have enjoyed that a lot more if I didn't have a girl screaming in my ear. I swear she was trying to have sex with me at one point, kind of thrusting against me. Wrong in a lot of senses. Every 2 minutes she was like 'woooooooooo!!!!!!!!' Arrrrrrghhhhhhh!

I went home on Sunday as I totally lost Vojtech and Tom and didn't know what to do with myself. I was feeling totally run down so braved it and left with all my stuff. It was great to spend the weekend with people I don't usually see. Nice to meet Vojtech and Ashley's brothers. I'm heading to St Albans on 12th Sept, mucho drinking before Tom goes back to uni and hopefully see some people I haven't seen in a year or so!

On Saturday night I had the worst headache known to man, Voi said I was getting ill, I think he was right :( I could feel it slightly at football last night but this morning I woke up and I just feel pretty much shit. I'm going to Turkey tonight, setting off at 5pm. Flight is at 9pm, getting there about 3am local time. I'm going to be absolutely knackered when I get there and i'm not looking forward to the plane ride give my sinus state! Boooo.

Any hell, be good, don't miss me.

If you'll only, if you'll only say yes

Being alone is not fun.

I've been okay the past few weeks and the strain of a serious relationship at my age always seems to be something that bothers me. Then there's the other end of the scale where i've got zero interest from anyone.

So basically, it's a bit shit being without someone to have cuddles with, to travel with, to watch trashy movies and eat doritos & dip with, to see live music with.....asfrrekfdvnkfvg;/

Too many bad things have happened, I keep telling myself I didn't but the more I think about it the more I think I wasted 4 years of my life being with Dave. I couldn't ever see that ending and then it just, did. So basically from when I was 15 to 20 I had a boyfriend and god knows what I missed out on. Then there were a few people which are probably not even worth counting and Adam. I had such a strong feeling about Adam and I when we first got together and even though it was only 8 months or something I didn't expect that to end so soon. Then we've got now, i'm 21, I have a reasonably good job which I should be able to save money with but alas that doesn't seem to be going anywhere at the moment and that's it really. All my friends have boyfriends, are broke, have children or already live with others so if I moved out: - who the hell would I live with? My life is pretty much at a stand still and I need something to completely blow that out of the water. I thought I found that, but that's becoming more and more of a doubt :(

I'm hoping Reading will go well and I won't be left to my own devices all weekend. I'm looking forward to seeing Lauren and possibly making some new friends. Then Tuesday will arrive and i'll be off to Turkey for some proper relaxation. Although before then I have to prepare my stuff at work for F-run and that will be a mission and a half. I don't want to come back to a million credits and god knows what else. I trust Claire wholeheartedly with my work so i'm not worried there, just slightly worried a ton of stuff with flow through and nobody will notice, then we'll be in a rather massive pickle. Fingers crossed.

I'm off to watch 'The Perfect Vagina' - should be interesting if nothing else. Who in the right mind would have SURGERY on their Vagina? Some bloke just said "If you're having sex for the first time with a woman and she's got an ugly fanny, nah sorry mate as if" - HELLO?! Since when are lady bits attractive?! They're all pretty ugly in my opinion. Who spends that much time looking at it anyway? I should really stop talking about Vaginas.

Nothing sweet about me

Ooh it's all changed on the dashboard front, I quite like it.

I went to see Kojaks for the 4347829571925th time last night. I wasn't so excited about it before going but it was actually really good. I decided to drive and not drink - save money on taxis. Kojaks had added some new songs to the bill including Wombats, Muse and Foo Fighters. Real good fun.

I was probably the only sober one along with my Mum, sort of. She was tipsy. I spent my time dancing to the music but also sort of looking around at everyone. There was an awful couple in front of me that clearly needed to get a room before they ate each others faces. Not only were they blocking my view they were just pretty gross. What the heck, i'm probably just jealous. There was another couple, he was really tall and skinny and she was kind of short and fat. They looked pretty odd, but I guess odd is good. You could tell it was one of their first dates, they stood in a hugging position all night and you could tell they really liked each other and perhaps they were both thinking about kissing each other but no one making the first move. When they eventually did it was kind of like he was trying to break the world record for fasted french kiss or something, his hand kind of awkwardly placed on her face. It was all a bit horrendous, but I bet they're happy.

We left the wedgewood rooms at around 00:30, Dad still trying to claim his youth wanted to stay so there was a small disagreement, I couldn't be doing with a big disagreement so I made Mum leave. We were going to go for a shirins, then Dad decides he wants to come so we pick him up outside the venue. He was so drunk, just sort of staring and saying 'I'm not drunk' then squirting an empty plate with salad cream and wiping it up with his little finger. How bloody embarrassing. Dad drunk is hilarious when he doesn't get out of order, bahaha. Got home at around 2am, spent some time talking to Adam, not really sure what's happening there :-/

Going to Vicki's tonight for Xfactor watching and drinks, yay!

Our holiday is officially booked! £220, from bournemouth to Dalaman on Tuesday 26th August. I am so very excited to get some SUN and eat in some pretty amazing restaurants. I really hope I can get on with Mum for a week because I really hate feeling down when i'm away from home. Fingers crossed!

I've been watching the Olympics and I think swimming is my favourite event. Michael Phelps is amazing, I know he's not British or anything but he is quite clearly a machine. Rebecca Addlington has been working it for Britain. She is amazing! She's younger than me, and look how much she has achieved. Makes me feel like an incredible failure, good lord. Not that i'm expected to win 2 gold medals at the Olympics, haha. I'm definitely going to try and go to some events at 2012! I'm watching the cycling indoor drome thing, I really don't get how this works. Did I just hear them say '58' laps to go?! There's like a long line of cyclists and the person at the front of the line doesn't necessarily win. This logic is all wrong.

Helloooo some lovely, interesting, funny male come and take me away. K thnx.

This guy: ? - He wears two swimming hats! That has to earn points.

Joker

It's been a funny old day. Was without Claire at work today which was odd, seemed to get a lot done though.

I am going to sleep at 11 tonight, I am always SO tired in the mornings and I can never get out of bed at 7 when I mean to, always 7:30 and even then my eyes are almost closed walking to the bathroom. Sigh.

I think going on holiday is looking less and less likely. Flights are going up and i'm going to have literally nothing to do on my week off. Great.

I saw Batman last week, it was literally the most amazing thing i've ever seen. Ledger was sensational, watching him was like watching the Joker be the Joker, not Heath Ledger being the Joker. It was incredible. What an amazing talent to have lost so suddenly. I thought Christian Bale was quite good as Batman too, still have a secret love for Val Kilmer though....mm.

I'm not really sure where i'm going with these small paragraphs about nothing of interest. I figure this will be the last one since it wasn't really the best idea i've had.

Repetitive Shit Injury

RSI? Fucking great. It hurts like hell :( Pay back for something, can't imagine what. Repetitive Strain Injury is not fun, God knows how work is going to pan out tomorrow. Think i'll go to the Doc in the morning but then what are they going to do? I can't have time off work i'm covering Claire these next 2 weeks! Ahh!

Today will be my 3rd trip to Wembley this year, it probably isn't going to be the best out of the 3. No, wait it DEFINITELY isn't going to be the best, last time I was there we bloody won the FA cup! Nothing will ever beat that. Plus today we're playing Manchester United, not West Brom or crummy Cardiff.

Really ought to get in the bath and it hurts with every key I press...ow..hmph.

My Favourite Accident

"You said, "We were an accident."
With accidents you’ll never know what could have been.
So we were an accident,
You'll always be my favorite one.

We could have been
We could have been...
(Instead of accidental running, always running.)
Again.
Why can’t you believe?

Long winded promises of future company.
Up close the sound remains the same.
Without the reign of terror over every momentary change,
We are exactly as before."

G'day mate!

I'm watching Mcfly perform a really cool song on T4. This is my Sunday.

So last night was horrendous in a really really really good way. I've actually made wicked friends at work which have led me to other friends. Work is amazing, I actually enjoy my job and I have it all sorted; good job, good friends, good life. Yeah.

Mills, Jude and I went out last night, we left the house at 10:30pm I was starting to think there was hardly any point since it was so late but it turned out this was just the beginning of our night. Barbara was a rather nice taxi driver who told us if we were charged more than £12.70 on the way home we would be getting mugged off. To be quite honest I think we got charged about £14 on the way home, hahaha. Rats. (Sorry to divert the topic however, what on earth is the scouting for girls singer doing wearing skinny jeans on T4 on the beach? - He is far too chubby and he's bulging out the sides...shit trousers, goes with his shit band I suppose.) We went to Little Johnny Russell's where I randomly saw Abby and Adam so we had a laugh with her and I saw Vicki Black who told me I was beautiful about 20 times, always welcome. I swapped British Airways stories with a lady Mills knows as she works for them, and I do contracts for them (It's seemed pretty cool at the time but really not...) She told me she could get me an upgrade on a BA flight to Turkey, that would be okay except BA totally mug you off with flight prices and don't fly to Dalaman so little chance of that happening. We stayed in LJR's until it closed basically and had a chat with a DJ there that works in IBM in 'E Block' I made some reference to the cool people being in B Block...I have no idea what that was about. Any normal human being would have gone home at 1:30am but oh no! We got a taxi to EQ and had some reet fun. Also, not for the first time someone said they thought I was Australian - what is that about?! Last weekend we went to Yates and one of Mills' friends said they thought I was Aussie or just posh then some guy last night says "Where are you from? You sound Australian" then we proceeded to have a 30 minute conversation about Neighbours and how I lived on Ramsay Street. Alter Ego?

I slept for about 10 or 15 minutes on the toilet floor of EQ (not my classiest moment)...this was until someone reached in and grabbed my leg to see if I was alive and I realised I had to actually get up and move. I called a taxi and made everyone leave since I was starting to see double and i'm pretty sure this isn't normal unless wearing double vision goggles and I don't think I was wearing any of those. We got home at around 3:30am to Jude's and I threw my shoes in the hall way and dived in a single bed I found, apparently it was broken due to Jude and Steve having to much rowdy sex on it so I had to turf myself out and me and Mills slept in a double bed. We both woke up this morning with out clothes still on Jewelery n'all. Good lord what a hangover this morning. A frickin' awesome night though. Oh! Also, walked along trying to flag a taxi and I saw a guy with a cool hat on. I told him I liked his hat and he just took it off and gave it to me, so I have acquired a rather nice hate which I will never ever wear again because when I say 'nice' I actually mean 'stupid'.

I'm going to do more sleeping now. Bai.

Why so blue, Panda Bear?

Oh so blue. Life is just about the most unfair thing ever to exist. I mean I wouldn't want to end it or anything but for christ sake, I wish I knew where i'd be in 10 years time! Married? Children? Well Travelled? Who knowsssss, I hate not knowing! Grrrrrr.

So Adam and I ended what we had, i'm kind very upset about it since he is soooooo lovely. Boooo. Oh well, I can get over it, it's going to take a while because I feel so alone right now but i'll be okay in a few months. Plus something special might happen between now and then, who knows! I keep saying who knows...I should really stop that.

You know when you have someone to call yours it's like you know they love you for what you are, then when that relationship ends you have thoughts of 'Oh god, is anybody going to like me now or was that my only chance?' I am terrified of living now! Ahhh!

I've got a hot date on friday with TV and my laptop and the big wide web, bring it on! Oh god, geek.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I <3 Sleep

Alright, Dave, you git.

Anyway, I had a pretty cool weekend. Friday I saw some oldddd friends, which was nice. Jim, Dan, Tom, Ferg, Mike, being the pick of the bunch. Was nice to see old Seton aswell. The Cosmic boys were pretty ace is usual, and I was surprised by Sonic Boom Six. I actually didn't mind them as much as I thought I would. Ferg being the gentleman that he is drove us to and from the gig, was well weird seeing St Albans for the first time in a good year.

Saturday Adam and I went into town and looked around all the shops, bought nothing. Although got given a rather tasty olive from a random olive market thing...yum! Bought some things for Adam's Brother's Girlfriend Aislinn, it was her birthday and we went to her BBQ later that afternoon. She was turning 21, she is younger than me! Not by much, but still she's going out with his older brother which makes me feel slightly odd, hah. The BBQ was fun, Aislinn's Mum was top drawer and her garden was MASSIVE, we even had a go on the trampoline. We left around 21:30 and went home to watch this really cool film called 'The Final Cut.' Starring Jude Law, Sadie Frost, Ray Winstone and some others about a guy (Jude, literally called Jude, they all went by their first names as the characters...weird) who dies and the whole movie is based at his funeral and his last wish is for them to see this movie he made filming them secretly leading up to his death. A bit surreal but I thought it was quite imaginative. I just bought 'Trainspotting' from amazon, I think i've only ever watched half of it so it'll be interesting to see the whole thing.

Sunday, we ate at Moon's and talked, then I went home. I hate trains, so loonnggg. I like the journey there, the way back is so painful though. Rubbish.

Becky had her baby! A little girl weighing 6lbs 8oz - I couldn't have been more wrong on the sweepstake if I tried. Hahah. She's named it 'Kiki-lee' hmmm, it's a little too close to Kiki-dee... I bet she's a cutie though, can't wait until she brings her in for 'show and tell', heheh. Remember show and tell? That was amazing.

Grim creeper

ANOTHER teenager has been stabbed and died in London. What the fuck is up with that? NINETEEN teenagers this year have been killed by knife crime. Who in the right mind takes a KNIFE out with them on a night out?! This latest guy was only 20, he died at the scene, I can't even get my head around this! Ahhh!

All I want to do is sleeeeeeeeeeeep!

I'm sat in my dressing gown getting ready for work. I should probably get on..!

Do you want to go to the seaside?

17:26 i'm home from work and it's been a great day!

Claire is going camping from today until monday though so buddyless for tomorrow and monday! Booo!

Going to Watford tomorrow to see Adammmm. It shall be nice especially since I get to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in literally a year at the horn for Kid Cosmic gig, yay! I'm leaving work at 1pm, coming home to get stuff ready then getting the 1:45 train. Stopping off in oxford street to topshop to buy shoes. (Yes, more shoes. :D) I shall be taking my bag on its first outing (to and from work does not count!) so I hope it enjoys it as much as I will.

Last night my computer was being such a piece of shit, so I hope it fairs better this evening. So far so good! Abby is coming round shortly to see if she can help set up IBM laptop at home. I got all the necessary things to use it but it wouldn't let me log in before, I think it's something to do with our home connection, boreeeetastic.

I'm sat here in snowman pajamas (I never saw the point of coming home and putting on clothes if you're not going out anywhere...straight to the jim jams!) and an I <3 NY t-shirt. What a combination, hahah. It's sexy, trust me.

I have just realised Motion City Soundtrack with 'Helicopter' is one of the best songs ever, well maybe not ever but certainly today! It's just made me cheery :)

Bai.

Are we ever gonna get it right? Are we ever gonna stop making sense and start pretending that we care? Hello Helicopter, are you listening?

Head to Head

Who knew I was so rude? I didn't. It's funny how other people perceive you to what they think you are and to what you actually are. What is the real me? Who knows. I wish I knew. I don't think anybody knows, we each have an idea of what we're like in our heads but that's probably the complete opposite of what we are, or something, I don't know.

Always Remembered.

May those who lost their lives in the 7/7 London Bombings rest in peace. Never forgotten, always remembered.

Emily's Boutique

Basically i've bought the most beautiful bag ever to exist.


Mine has a different charm to this as they're all customised, it's soooo pretty!!!

I've been watching the tennis and I actually think Rafa is gonna win, I really hope he wins!! I like Roger and it's almost impossible to hate him because he is such a nice bloke. Grrr. Quite annoying actually. Nevertheless, c'mon NADAL!

Dad's home, popping in before he's off to north Devon for summit. Mum and I have some tasty treat from marks & spencers. We're posh don't you know :P

Anyway this blog is crap and short, I really just wanted to rave about my new bag for a bit.

Mission accomplished... :P

xx

The L word

"Love, like a river, will cut a new path
whenever it meets an obstacle."

"When you love someone,
all your saved-up wishes start coming out."

"Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful."

"Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds
and warming your soul."

"To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world."

"My pillow.

Enveloping me in your soft folds of comfort.

Eyes closed, your gentle caress soothes my concerns
and carries my thoughts to a bed of pure contentment.

Completely satisfied, I lay in your sweet embrace,
longing to remain indefinitely.

This is love."

"Love reminds you that nothing else matters."

"Love is like a piece of art work,
even the smallest bit can be so beautiful."

"Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock
because when it goes off the first time in the morning
the thoughts of your loved one
make it impossible to fall back asleep."

Early birthday excitedness.

Basically it's 14:02pm and i'm still in bed.

Had a bit of a weird night. This guy my parents know had a 40th birthday in a field. People camped, it was interesting. I ended up sleeping in the back of our car, which was surprisingly comfortable. I slept over the loud music and woe at 3:30am to find it had all died down a tad. We did a mini sports day thing during the day which was fun for about 10 minutes, then I went to sit near our tent which consisted of Mum and Ferris laying in it asleep.
Bless Ferris, there were all these other dogs and he was the oldest. Must have felt like the Dad, or a pimp - either one. I don't want him to die :( He's 15 how so he must be on his way soon, hmphy. Poor Dog.

I have had this sodding cold/cough since I got back from the festival and to be quite honest it's not making me feel very good. GRrrrrrrr. Constantly waking up and finding it difficult to talk might be other peoples idea of heaven but certainly not mine! Ha.

Next weekend is going to be amazing! Friday it's Mum's birthday so I think we're going to Abby's for some fun, we've got her a really cool present that she will like! I hope! Saturday I'm going to London bright an early to meet Henri for a day of shopping/fun and then me, Henri and Adam are coming back to mine on Saturday night so we're all ready for Sunday which is my birthday BBQ! Corr..21? I hope it's a good age. Lots of people are coming and it'll be quite the lovely affair i'm sure. Euro Final on at 19:45! Whoop whoop whoop!

Then next Thursday...my birthday! Whoa! :D

Love

"L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extra-ordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love- its all that i could give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look-you lookin at me
O is for the only one i see
V is very very extra-ordinary, now
E is even more than any anyone that you adore can

Love is all that i can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you"

What is love?

I was going to start this blog with 'So..' but I think i've started too many blogs with 'so'. Hmph.

Anyway, I went to bed pretty late last night I don't think i've been up until past 3am for a long time. Although, that's because i'm boring and old I suppose. Hah. Had probably the worse/best telephone call with Adam at about midnight. Lots of gut sinking feelings, which are the absolute worst. I really wish feelings didn't exist, except happy and acceptance. Because then you could go through a relationship being really super happy and then when it ends you could be like 'Yeah, cool we had a good run'. None of this crying crap or stomach ache crap or any other crap for the hell of it.

I am suppose to be going shopping today, and to see sex and the city later. I sort of feel like this is some what overshadowed now though, and this is no one's fault - I just want to fight harder for this than i've ever wanted to fight anything ever before. But I guess there comes a point when you have to let it go. I don't want that to be yet. Owie. :( It's my fault, mostly because I make things into a bigger deal than they are. Maybe this isn't a big deal, I really need to hear that.

Anyway, I really don't think i'm making much sense.

I love you, Adam.

We live on fascination...

I am not feeling being awake at 5am. Well of course now it is 5:38am, but still. It is literally like a sauna in my room so I have the fan on. Who needs a holiday when it's 54358347925 degrees in my room?!

I'm sorry if anyone's reading this and it's not making sense. I probably won't make much sense at this time of the morning and i'll probably be going back to sleep after this. Just thought i'd spout some uninteresting crap first. I hope Adam is feeling okay, we're going to have the best time at the festival with EVERYONE! He's gonna love it, and i'm gonna love it and we're all gonna love it, obviously. I'm so very excited for live music, mostly.

Took me so long to get to sleep last night. At first I had EitS on my iPod playing to send me to sleep but then I started having visions of waking up in the middle of the night and my headphones strangling me, so quickly removed those, turned the volume up high and rest the headphones next to me. - Best for all I think, nobody wants to be woken up to to a dead Emily. Well I'm sure somebody wouldn't mind but it definitely wouldn't please anybody in this house, especially me. Hahah.

Plus I was lay wondering how Alan's date was going. Before he went out he was so uninspired by the thought of this said date. I do hope he found a nice lady, no sign of him online at this moment and it'll be like...12:44am there so he may well still be partying!

Anyway I duno what I was hoping to find on Rotc or facebook at 5:46am - nobody is online you idiot! They're all asleep just like you're suppose to be...oh great now i'm talking to myself. First sign of insanity? I hope not! :)

I've just gone on letssingit.com to find lyrics to an alphabeat song and 'Opeth' are todays 'featured artist'. Hahahahahaha. Oh god! :)

Durham or Durham?

So yesterday I had the camera. I don't really know what I worried about, I don't remember anything about it. I was sat in a room with my Mum with this ridiculous gown on, my dressing gown and some slippers. I waited there for an hour or so whilst my Mum picked her feet! (Yes, I said picked her feet...!) Gross. Dr Duncan came in to collect me, I walked down to theatre and he put a needle in the back of m y hand which was surprisingly okay, then he said i'd feel my arm go 'warm' then I went a bit dizzy and said 'Ah, makes you go dizzy' then that was about it until I was being wheeled into recovery, haha. How strange.

He said that I had 'loops' in my stomach or 'knots' I don't know. Anyway I have another appointment next week and if they can't explain what's wrong with me then they will do allergy and intollerance testing - there has to be something wrong! Obviously nothing serious but it really needs to be sorted because living like this is getting me down :(

So that was over and now i'm on my day off from work since they said I can't go in. Apparently it takes a long time for this drowsy stuff to get out of your body and I do feel rather tired. Unfortunately this mean i'm stuck with daytime TV. Jeremy Kyle is currently on, he's a grade A wanker if you've ever met one isn't he? Oh well, i'll be onto Bargain Hunt and so fourth later.. *roll*

Adam is going home today, this makes me sad. Hmph. His Dad is bringing his 'bat mobile' I have no idea how he'll fit all of his stuff in there. They are well going to have trouble! I shall miss him terribly but next weekend is ISLE OF WIGHT FESTIVAL! Yay! Kaisers! Wombats - I am MOST looking forward to! The Cribs and Kate Nash will be awesome too. A weekend in the sun! Soooooo excited! And this saturday i'm getting my hair chopped, and coloured so I will look a little different for the festival and well, in general life.

There has just been an advert on for the start of Euro 2008. This advert consists of a guy with a deflated football and the commentary of when Croatia beat England and knocked us out of the Euro Finals and then it says 'The best cure for a broken heart Portugal Vs Turkey Euro 2008' okay so 1. who wants to be reminded that we didn't make it to the European Championship 2008 again? and 2. How is Portugal V Turkey the cure for a broken heart?! 'Oh look at these teams playing in a tournament we didn't even make it to for the first time in many MANY years'! I'll watch and i'll be supporting Croatia as Niko Kranjcar is part of the Portsmouth Squad and he is quite possibly the most beautiful man ever made. So, I hope they do well. Goooo Croatia!

Something quite strange happened 2/3 days ago. Random person added me to Facebook, found out that he works at IBM - I made the stupid mistake of thinking he was in the UK, alas he's in the US which is kind of annoying since we seem to be getting on quite well! I love making new friends, that sounds like something incredibly cheesy from some US Teen flick (Sorry ha!) but seriously, we've talked a couple of times a day for the last 2 days and it's just easy talking, like I don't really have to think much before having a conversation for hours on end. I've only ever had that with a selected few people Jane (Although I don't really think I have that anymore sadly), Paul (I received a text the other day and all it said was 'emilyemilyemilyemilyemily' and that was all I heard haha), Adam (He's awesome and we still have this, yay!) and Becca. Maybe boys are easier to talk to plus it's interesting to get to know someone from another Country, especially one that's never been outside of that Country! Anyway, I look forward to many more conversations with Alan :)

I am totally out of things to say now, so later!

Famous

PAID. I haven't been able to be this, in oh I don't know...a month! And I sort of ran out of money for the last week. I have booked a hair appointment at Hair OTT, god knows how it will go but I figure since i've only been to a hair dresser twice in my life I have to try it! It'll be shame getting my hair cut for more than £10 though. Hmph.

My Dad is sitting near me, i've just found out the best thing ever. So he works for a furniture company and he's in charge of putting the new catalogue together and he's named a chair after me! Yes, you heard it here first. Remploy are selling a range of 'Emily Chair's'. Ohhh yeahhhhh! I'm practically famous.

Britains got talent has been on all this week and tonight's has been okay. Although I don't really get the point of regular singers being in it since there's a whole show for that on later in the year i.e. Pop Idol or whatever it's called nowadays. X Factor! That's it :o) Out of tonights Farrell and Charlie should go through. Charlie wasn't that funny but he was slightly charming and that goes to show how good the other people were, ha. Some guy thinks he's Errol Brown and there's a bunch of chickens dancing around, they definitely can't win. Oh crap, Jeremy and singer guy (forgot his name..) are to choose from. I vote Jeremy, go football!

Damn you Andrew.

FA CUP GLORY

We've won the fucking Fa Cup. I actually can't believe it, it's 4 days after the big event and I am still in shock! So proud of the Pompey boys and Niko says he's staying! He says the future is too bright to leave, - I agree! Love him <3

Being at Wembley when we lifted the FA Cup was probably the best moment of my life. The feeling was indescribable and I might not ever see that again - I witnessed history!! Ah, I loved itttttttt!

Massive congratulations to Pompey and all connected with the club - even scummers were congratulating! Hahah.

Proudest moment:

Stealthy

So we've made it into the FA Cup Final - What the fuck happened there?! Someone please tell me how exactly this has happened..? We've been playing so badly in the cup and some how ended up in the final...i'm not complaining! Wembley for the Semi Final was amazing! I was so nervous in the build up and through out the whole game...so really just all day. So ecstatic when we won! I always thought West Brom would get one back, I don't think I would have been able to handle penalties...

Alas, we won! And it was fabulous! Stayed in Hammersmith in an apartment that Mum and Dad rented for the weekend but we had to sleep on the floor. The hard carpet with a thin blanket was not the best! Met up with Schminky Steve and Matt, they were incredibly wasted but very fun all the same, hahaha.

I went to Thorpe Park yesterday and having feared rides for such a long time I am totally proud of myself for going on Colossus and Stealth. Fuckingjesuschristonabike Stealth was the most horrifying thing I have ever been on in my life. EVER, ever ever ever. It was just absolutely horrendous, they count down from 3 2 1 and then they tell you to brace yourself, then fling you off at like 100mph and you go so far up in the air, stop for a millisecond at the top and fly back down again. You can't see the track when you come back down, I don't think i've ever been more scared, I actually shed some tears! I bought a keyring with our picture on so I could remember the moment. I'm not sure I ever want to go on it again! In the photo Adam has his eye's open and thumbs up, i've got my eyes shut screaming so loud! The contrast is quite funny. It was the first time I scream just came out, I literally couldn't stop it. It's making me giddy thinking about it..eek.

'Wembley Weekend'

I haven't written in a while but now I actually have some things to report! -

2 Days left at work and i'm off on Friday morning to London for the 'Wembley Weekend' arrrghhhh I can't wait! I just hope we win. We haven't performed the best against Championship side sin the cup so far and I hope we get our arses in gear for West Brom, it's at arguably the best ground in the world and i've got a pretty good ticket! £66 in all, - £55 for the ticket, £5 booking fee and £6 for a ticket to a club that a man in Portsmouth has hired for Pompey fans only before and after the match. Should be good!

Adam's birthday was yesterday, I got him some pretty good gifts and he seemed to like them :) We had a small party last night but it didn't exactly go to plan. I was trying at 7pm to get tickets for Reading Festival but it was so hard! Everything was busy and in the end I totally gave up. My Dad called me this morning though and dun dun dun 2 tickets are mine, schwwwinggggg.

IOW Festival really isn't that far away and i've gotta think about moving out some more! Me and Clive are well gonna find a rad pad. She really cheered me up last night, she's the best friend ever! :)

I went shopping on saturday to get the rest of Adam's gift and got Sigur ros - Takk and Editors first album for £10 - quite a bargain I think.

It's 18:26 and I have no idea where my parents are...hmm..

DREAM LAND!

Actually the most amazing feeling EVER! Pompey have reached the FA cup semi finals after beating Manchester United! Ah! Dad and I and everyone else are off the Wembley! Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

It was an absolutely nerve racking game and we ended up winning from a penalty with Rio Ferdinand in goal, what?!?!?

GET INNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!

Living the dream.