What is love?

I was going to start this blog with 'So..' but I think i've started too many blogs with 'so'. Hmph.

Anyway, I went to bed pretty late last night I don't think i've been up until past 3am for a long time. Although, that's because i'm boring and old I suppose. Hah. Had probably the worse/best telephone call with Adam at about midnight. Lots of gut sinking feelings, which are the absolute worst. I really wish feelings didn't exist, except happy and acceptance. Because then you could go through a relationship being really super happy and then when it ends you could be like 'Yeah, cool we had a good run'. None of this crying crap or stomach ache crap or any other crap for the hell of it.

I am suppose to be going shopping today, and to see sex and the city later. I sort of feel like this is some what overshadowed now though, and this is no one's fault - I just want to fight harder for this than i've ever wanted to fight anything ever before. But I guess there comes a point when you have to let it go. I don't want that to be yet. Owie. :( It's my fault, mostly because I make things into a bigger deal than they are. Maybe this isn't a big deal, I really need to hear that.

Anyway, I really don't think i'm making much sense.

I love you, Adam.