Glamour Magazine have published 'Glamour's 100 Sexiest Men' in the November 2012 issue. Now one of two things has happened here; either today's Glamour reading women have lost all sense of sanity or and alien invasion has taken place which has in turn reduced the ability for women to evaluate a mans sexual appeal.
NUMBER FIFTY is Ryan Reynolds. Being that FORTY-ONE is Colin Firth I suspect this is some sort of printing error.
Now that's one end of the spectrum, the other end looks similar in the fact it is absolute nonsense. I assume since Colin Firth and David Tenant even made it into the top 50 that middle aged women were voting in their stocking clad thousands but then we have NUMBER ONE - Robert Pattinson. Whilst he is a semi-alrighttolookat vamp guy when we're considering the entire species of men I hardly think number one is his prime spot.
NUMBER TWO is possibly the most baffling since who ever is labelled as number two has to be worse than R-Patz, right? Readers are correct this guy is not a patch on Pats so much so that number two is exactly where he should be if it were a list of 'Worst Villians Ever'. God knows who's number one. Thor made it to NUMBER NINETEEN, Iron Man made it to NUMBER SIX, Captain America, The Hulk and Hawkeye didn't even make it on the list yet Tom Hiddleston AKA Loki is sat proud at number two, something has gone wrong with humanity.
We live in a world where a good portion of the female race think Cory Monteith is a bigger turn on than Tom Hardy, Ryan Gosling & David Beckham. Cory Monteith would struggle to turn on my light switch.
In other news and non-related to rating men's sexual appeal I was sat in the chinese the other day waiting for what I can confirm was friggin' delicious food I saw a man in his mid-sixties (aged is irrelevant not sure why I mentioned it) looking through The Sun newspaper. I have no problem with what newspapers people choose to read however I then saw him lick his grubby thumb and turn the page. I would love to know how people ever got by reading a newspaper or magazine without the need to salivate on a germ filled thumb to assist them in turning a page. Do you think anyone has ever turned a page of a book without licking their thumb first? Who ever thought "hey, this page is never going to turn if I don't stick my thumb in my mouth and cover it with stringy mouth goo." Unbelievable.
Changed the font just for you Neville. Happy Belated Birthday. x
Friday, 16 November 2012
Wednesday, 17 October 2012
The Way of Fortune
I'm pretty sure the growth from child to adult is suppose to happen gradually over the course of years and years. It seems to have happened to me within 1 month - woohoo! I am almost officially a home owner! After viewing 6 houses we thought it was going to take us forever and a day to find a place we really felt we could call home but turns out society was wrong, it's not 3rd times a charm, obviously.
My last post said it was about a year away, but we fell into an unexpected awesome situation which has enabled us to get one sooner, yay!
The Brucey Bonus is that it's about 200 metres from my sister's house and right round the corner from Jay's Grandparents old house so we both feel quite at home in the neighborhood. (Who ya gonna call?) It needs a little work but it's totally liveable for the time being and I am more excited than a kid at Disneyland to get in there! It now has a sold sign :o) Oooeeee! Hoping to be in by Christmas, my own friggin' Christmas Tree! I am so easily pleased...... :o)
Moving out is pretty awesome, i've learned that you get loads of free stuff! So far we've accumulated A fridge freezer, a tumble dryer, a set of table & chairs, a shelving unit, a blender & more!
Mum and I decided to clear out the loft last night, at least we started it, it's a mission which could take up to 3 weeks. It was full of rubbish, old tat, & the occasional awesome piece of history. We could probably open up a fancy dress shop with the amount of dressing up stuff we found. Amongst other items we have an Elvis suit, 70's gear, a plastic afro, Halloween wigs, assortment of hats, chef outfits, lifeguard oufits, tennis outfits and Duracell bunny outfits. I discovered a book of autographs; the highlights were Peter Crouch and Paul Merson, the low lights were Carl Tiler and Allessandro Zamperini (Who? I hear you ask - Couple of Pompey old timers.) Cards and homemade drawings from the 90's and a few items of clothing quiet clearly from the 80's. Aside from the fact I can no longer have a bath because it is currently filled with a couple of suitcases, some items of clothes, a bucket used for containing wood for a fire and a memory foam pillow, (not cool Mother) it was pretty cool.
I AM NOT A SHOWER PERSON.
The End.
P.S Since the April blog I have lost 21lbs in weight, in your face fatty fat fats.
My last post said it was about a year away, but we fell into an unexpected awesome situation which has enabled us to get one sooner, yay!
The Brucey Bonus is that it's about 200 metres from my sister's house and right round the corner from Jay's Grandparents old house so we both feel quite at home in the neighborhood. (Who ya gonna call?) It needs a little work but it's totally liveable for the time being and I am more excited than a kid at Disneyland to get in there! It now has a sold sign :o) Oooeeee! Hoping to be in by Christmas, my own friggin' Christmas Tree! I am so easily pleased...... :o)
Moving out is pretty awesome, i've learned that you get loads of free stuff! So far we've accumulated A fridge freezer, a tumble dryer, a set of table & chairs, a shelving unit, a blender & more!
Mum and I decided to clear out the loft last night, at least we started it, it's a mission which could take up to 3 weeks. It was full of rubbish, old tat, & the occasional awesome piece of history. We could probably open up a fancy dress shop with the amount of dressing up stuff we found. Amongst other items we have an Elvis suit, 70's gear, a plastic afro, Halloween wigs, assortment of hats, chef outfits, lifeguard oufits, tennis outfits and Duracell bunny outfits. I discovered a book of autographs; the highlights were Peter Crouch and Paul Merson, the low lights were Carl Tiler and Allessandro Zamperini (Who? I hear you ask - Couple of Pompey old timers.) Cards and homemade drawings from the 90's and a few items of clothing quiet clearly from the 80's. Aside from the fact I can no longer have a bath because it is currently filled with a couple of suitcases, some items of clothes, a bucket used for containing wood for a fire and a memory foam pillow, (not cool Mother) it was pretty cool.
I AM NOT A SHOWER PERSON.
The End.
P.S Since the April blog I have lost 21lbs in weight, in your face fatty fat fats.
Tuesday, 21 August 2012
GOLD
The last few posts are nothing but depressing so here's to a happier time...!!
Since my last post i'm even more excited about buying a house even though it's probably at least another year away! Considering i've been on the planet 25 years, another year doesn't seem tooooooo long to wait.
In other news, i'm going back to Florida on April 19th 2013, nothing but a 'woohoo' for that nugget of news right there. More Disney, more Universal, more Discovery Cove all inclusive days and more importantly (perhaps not more importantly...) that unbelievably amazing king bed at the Clarion. Oh yes!
Off to London on Thursday for the celebration of Jayboy's birthday - he hasn't a clue where we're going in London and just on the off chance he reads this I shan't mention it. I am beyond excited to check out the Citizen M hotel though - it has a touch screen pad to control everything in the room including the temperature, blinds, TV etc! I hope it's as good as the reviews! I'm also hoping the bridge is still holding the Olympic rings - pic-o-rama.
We return home on Saturday and are then going to Rancho steak house in Southsea! Fun filled weekend! Sunday will be used for relaxation and SLEEP.
The Olympics was literally the best thing on TV since Neighbours in the 90's. I am really really gutted I didn't get any tickets. I didn't watch anything else for 2 weeks, the olympic rings were etched on my brain and I LOVED IT! My fave's were The Velodrome, Chris Hoy & Laura Trott especially a joy to watch. Athletics, watching Ennis, Mo & Rutherford take the golds was something i'll never forget. What an evening! Other highlights included the swimming (Phelps, delish) and the diving. Too much good stuff, it was all friggin' amazing!! Gymnastics, Boxing, Judo, Volleyball, ROWING - most exciting thing to watch on TV. Literally was on the edge of my seat the entire time. "We're gonna be on a stamp!" Classic, makes me wish i'd paid a bit more attention in PE. Though i'm fairly certain I couldn't have got more joy out of watching it from my sofa if I tried. Thoroughly proud to be british and to have my country host such an iconic event is something a lot of people won't see if their lifetime. Amazing! I am having serious issues getting over it, The Premier League football season doesn't quite have the same charm since I don't support any of those teams and my team is barely hanging by a thread to the entire football association in League One. how the mighty have fallen. (Not sure we were ever mighty, maybe for about 3 minutes in 2008). Big up the Gold Medalists, hell, any medalists at The Olympics! Huge achievements by so many!
Let's not end on a sour note - Summer seems to have arrived at long last, long may it continue! Hurrah!
Since my last post i'm even more excited about buying a house even though it's probably at least another year away! Considering i've been on the planet 25 years, another year doesn't seem tooooooo long to wait.
In other news, i'm going back to Florida on April 19th 2013, nothing but a 'woohoo' for that nugget of news right there. More Disney, more Universal, more Discovery Cove all inclusive days and more importantly (perhaps not more importantly...) that unbelievably amazing king bed at the Clarion. Oh yes!
Off to London on Thursday for the celebration of Jayboy's birthday - he hasn't a clue where we're going in London and just on the off chance he reads this I shan't mention it. I am beyond excited to check out the Citizen M hotel though - it has a touch screen pad to control everything in the room including the temperature, blinds, TV etc! I hope it's as good as the reviews! I'm also hoping the bridge is still holding the Olympic rings - pic-o-rama.
We return home on Saturday and are then going to Rancho steak house in Southsea! Fun filled weekend! Sunday will be used for relaxation and SLEEP.
The Olympics was literally the best thing on TV since Neighbours in the 90's. I am really really gutted I didn't get any tickets. I didn't watch anything else for 2 weeks, the olympic rings were etched on my brain and I LOVED IT! My fave's were The Velodrome, Chris Hoy & Laura Trott especially a joy to watch. Athletics, watching Ennis, Mo & Rutherford take the golds was something i'll never forget. What an evening! Other highlights included the swimming (Phelps, delish) and the diving. Too much good stuff, it was all friggin' amazing!! Gymnastics, Boxing, Judo, Volleyball, ROWING - most exciting thing to watch on TV. Literally was on the edge of my seat the entire time. "We're gonna be on a stamp!" Classic, makes me wish i'd paid a bit more attention in PE. Though i'm fairly certain I couldn't have got more joy out of watching it from my sofa if I tried. Thoroughly proud to be british and to have my country host such an iconic event is something a lot of people won't see if their lifetime. Amazing! I am having serious issues getting over it, The Premier League football season doesn't quite have the same charm since I don't support any of those teams and my team is barely hanging by a thread to the entire football association in League One. how the mighty have fallen. (Not sure we were ever mighty, maybe for about 3 minutes in 2008). Big up the Gold Medalists, hell, any medalists at The Olympics! Huge achievements by so many!
Let's not end on a sour note - Summer seems to have arrived at long last, long may it continue! Hurrah!
Tuesday, 17 July 2012
Cherish the love
I know people say it's not possible to change somebody from what and how they really are, but is it possibly to evolve? A little chrysalis turns into a beautiful butterfly, going from a caterpillar to a floaty glorious colourful carefree insect. Is it possible for human to adapt this way personality wise?
Here I was thinking the worst feeling in the world was caring so much about someone and feeling like you're getting absolutely nothing in return. I was wrong - what's worse is knowing the other person cares for you deeply but seeming to be incapable if showing it. But I should just deal with it because that 'just the way they are'.
I am fully aware relationships are not like movies with hearts and flowers on a 24/7 basis but I am also aware these moment shouldn't come only twice a year on Birthdays and Valentines. I know it can be like that, because i've experienced it. I experienced it with the wrong person admittedly but for that time I was cherished, and I knew about it. That person no longer matters to me an inch so that's irrelevant but I do know it's possible to be thought of this way and right now I feel the opposite of cherished.
Here I was thinking the worst feeling in the world was caring so much about someone and feeling like you're getting absolutely nothing in return. I was wrong - what's worse is knowing the other person cares for you deeply but seeming to be incapable if showing it. But I should just deal with it because that 'just the way they are'.
I am fully aware relationships are not like movies with hearts and flowers on a 24/7 basis but I am also aware these moment shouldn't come only twice a year on Birthdays and Valentines. I know it can be like that, because i've experienced it. I experienced it with the wrong person admittedly but for that time I was cherished, and I knew about it. That person no longer matters to me an inch so that's irrelevant but I do know it's possible to be thought of this way and right now I feel the opposite of cherished.
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
Pissed Off Universe
I must apologise to which ever god i've managed to piss off now. Whilst walking from my car to the building into work this morning (which is about 200 metres) I managed to some how trap a nerve in my lower back. This has resulted in me walking like an elderly person for the duration of the day. I'm particularly looking forward to walking snail pace to the car later. Cheers life.
Is this what you get when you've been away for 2 weeks in lovely sunshine, just to balance it out? All in all i'd have to say it was worth it but I ask myself is it necessary? Not on your nelly.
My gorgeous Summer (my awesome niece, not the season) was a whole 1 year old on Saturday, we had a fabulous party and the sun even came out - who'd have thought? It was back to awesome rain in the evening though. Sumsy looked cute in her birthday dress :o) I believe this is a special dress designed for ones birthday though i'm pretty sure she could wear it on other occasions. Sunday Jay and I went to Nandos in Fareham and for a windy walk around Porchester Castle it was lovely and we discussed the fact we've never had a bad Nandos - I wonder if that'll ever happen? Surely not. Monday was relaxing, I got in the jubilee spirit whilst Jay did some painting of the new conservatory, and then we cooked a steak dinner - oh yes it was epic.
Now all of our body clocks are off and we all thought it was Sunday yesterday not quite being able to get that it is Wednesday today and indeed almost time for the weekend again! I could get used to this. A weekend that will be filled with Blink 182 and All American Rejects - 2 of my favourite bands from way back yonder. (I am only young you know.) Spending a night in a 4 star hotel - I will feel reet posh. We've only had the tickets for 2 years so it's not like were excited or anything.
A nice hotel and an awesome gig with my main man whybird :o) Oh hells yeah.
*Just to document HRH Queen Elizabeth II on 60 years on the throne - I am loving having a monarchy so much, we wouldn't get these precious days off work if we had a flamin' president! Rejoice!
Is this what you get when you've been away for 2 weeks in lovely sunshine, just to balance it out? All in all i'd have to say it was worth it but I ask myself is it necessary? Not on your nelly.
My gorgeous Summer (my awesome niece, not the season) was a whole 1 year old on Saturday, we had a fabulous party and the sun even came out - who'd have thought? It was back to awesome rain in the evening though. Sumsy looked cute in her birthday dress :o) I believe this is a special dress designed for ones birthday though i'm pretty sure she could wear it on other occasions. Sunday Jay and I went to Nandos in Fareham and for a windy walk around Porchester Castle it was lovely and we discussed the fact we've never had a bad Nandos - I wonder if that'll ever happen? Surely not. Monday was relaxing, I got in the jubilee spirit whilst Jay did some painting of the new conservatory, and then we cooked a steak dinner - oh yes it was epic.
Now all of our body clocks are off and we all thought it was Sunday yesterday not quite being able to get that it is Wednesday today and indeed almost time for the weekend again! I could get used to this. A weekend that will be filled with Blink 182 and All American Rejects - 2 of my favourite bands from way back yonder. (I am only young you know.) Spending a night in a 4 star hotel - I will feel reet posh. We've only had the tickets for 2 years so it's not like were excited or anything.
A nice hotel and an awesome gig with my main man whybird :o) Oh hells yeah.
*Just to document HRH Queen Elizabeth II on 60 years on the throne - I am loving having a monarchy so much, we wouldn't get these precious days off work if we had a flamin' president! Rejoice!
Thursday, 12 April 2012
Chip off the old cross
I am feeling quite chipper today. 'Chipper' another great word to go with my new found love of using 'I'm cross' when angry. Whether or not i'll actually remember to say that at an angry time or whether it'll go out the window and i'll end up with the usual 'F' Sake', who knows. Probably the latter. Oh well.
In other news I am going to Turkey in 25 days. Visiting the parents gaff, and generally doing nothing but laying around, reading, swimming, beaching, eating at bars along the beach and drinking large amounts of cocktails; actually that sounds like quite a lot. Should be a lot less than my last holiday though(Florida, Disney) which was enough to kill anyone willing to spend that much time on their feet in 35 degree heat. I'm still recovering tbh. Though in all honesty i'd do it again in a heart beat! Even though I broke down in tears outside Animal Kingdom where I was close to making a decision to cut my feet off. Alas, mental sanity prevailed and I made it by simply opening a can of whoopass and moving on.
I did Aqua Aerobics last night, Sara's new routine - jeebus my body aches like a mothertrucker this morning. Anyone that says this is not a proper form of exercise has been seriously misinformed. I have been doing a large amount of swimming recently, and have already seen quite an improvement in the number of lengths I can do. It's gone from 20 to 30 to 40 and we're heading for the big 50 now. 64 lengths is a mile so we're getting closer! Though I have to say there is only so much swimming back and fourth that is enjoyable.
Did a massive clear out of clothes yesterday, I am now left with nothing which is the perfect excuse to go shopping for more shit I don't need. I also chucked out about 10 pairs of shoes, which now leaves me with a mere 20 odd. Hmm, definitely need more shoes. 20 is clearly not enough.
This has been one of my more productive blogs of late so I think i'll leave it there.
In other news I am going to Turkey in 25 days. Visiting the parents gaff, and generally doing nothing but laying around, reading, swimming, beaching, eating at bars along the beach and drinking large amounts of cocktails; actually that sounds like quite a lot. Should be a lot less than my last holiday though(Florida, Disney) which was enough to kill anyone willing to spend that much time on their feet in 35 degree heat. I'm still recovering tbh. Though in all honesty i'd do it again in a heart beat! Even though I broke down in tears outside Animal Kingdom where I was close to making a decision to cut my feet off. Alas, mental sanity prevailed and I made it by simply opening a can of whoopass and moving on.
I did Aqua Aerobics last night, Sara's new routine - jeebus my body aches like a mothertrucker this morning. Anyone that says this is not a proper form of exercise has been seriously misinformed. I have been doing a large amount of swimming recently, and have already seen quite an improvement in the number of lengths I can do. It's gone from 20 to 30 to 40 and we're heading for the big 50 now. 64 lengths is a mile so we're getting closer! Though I have to say there is only so much swimming back and fourth that is enjoyable.
Did a massive clear out of clothes yesterday, I am now left with nothing which is the perfect excuse to go shopping for more shit I don't need. I also chucked out about 10 pairs of shoes, which now leaves me with a mere 20 odd. Hmm, definitely need more shoes. 20 is clearly not enough.
This has been one of my more productive blogs of late so I think i'll leave it there.
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
Self Loath
You'd think i'd be used to my Mother inadvertently reminding me i'm fat however, I can confirm I am not and the last bit of my self confidence has indeed been shed. The fact I am not the skinny one with a pretty baby but instead am the fat one who still resides at home probably doesn't bode well for me.
Underneath my bubbly shell there is a really dark place where I am currently staying for the foreseeable future. Who needs food anyway?
I don't really have anything else to say. Bad week :(
Underneath my bubbly shell there is a really dark place where I am currently staying for the foreseeable future. Who needs food anyway?
I don't really have anything else to say. Bad week :(
Monday, 12 March 2012
Spring Forward
HELLO WEATHER!
I feel spring is finally here with the appearance of the actual Sun for the first time in a good while.
This weekend was awesome, a fun filled family weekend. Friday night Jay and I looked after my baby niece :o) Molly Mo was good as gold, 9 months old and virtually sleeping through the night! I fed her, put her down for sleep and then we did home made pizzas! Yum! Little Mo woke up around 11:30 but I soon picked her up and gave her a cuddle and she fell back to sleep on me. She's soooooo cute. Jay and I got to bed around 1am which was late because let's be honest i'm old now so anything past midnight is unthinkable.
Saturday was Dad's birthday, reaching the age of 51 has not changed my Dad in the slightest he's every bit as emotional as he was before. I made him a 'Father/Daughter' collage of photos from when I was born to pretty much now and he shed a few tears when he opened it, bless his cottons! ;-) Mum spent the day making food and cleaning in preparation for our guests in the evening. Abby, Caroline, Dad, me, Grandad Ken, Dave, Lyn, Anne & Vic all went to The Still and West for a few drinks before hand then the evening was spent with most of Dad's side of the family who joined us for a Chilli Con Carne, with dips, tortillas and pretty much everything else you can find in Morrisons & Sainsburys. The Vanilla vodka I bought from Asda last week was a definite hit, bring back Vanilla Coke! That stuff was amazing. Tad sickly after a while though so had to naturally move to regular vodka. People left around 11 and I was in bed at an earlier time than Friday night though drunk so basically I felt exactly the same.
Yesterday was the best weather of the weekend. Jay and I went to Waterlooville in search for some smart shoes though with no luck drove out to the country and went to The Chairmakers for a drink. Then went to Morrisons and bought some Tomato Chutney & Mozzarella burgers. Went home in hope of watching a film though the XBox was mugging us off a treat so that had to go off. Instead of educated myself with a lovely film instead I fell asleep for 2 hours. Not really sure how that happened, I woke up and Jay was no where to be found. Turns out he'd had a shower & cleaned his room. Was I in that much of a deep sleep!? Waking up with no one there bought back memories of Pontins in the early 90's. Parents left me in the chalet whilst they went out on the complex, I woke up, nobody was there and I pretty much went MENTAL. Explains a lot. Madeline McCann?!
Anyway I got up this morning in a rush and in haste made a ham and cress sandwich (exciting) and forgot the marvelous news that today is team lunch day and we're going to Pizza Hut! So the sandwich will have to go in the fridge for tomorrow. To make is worse Sheila has bought in a selection of Krispy Kreme doughnuts which I absolutely will not touch. (not at this time of the morning anyway) Really trying to stay away, why must these things tempt me :(
This weekend will be spends with friends on Friday, Lunch with Mum on Saturday and Sunday some sort of relay between houses for Mother's Day!
I feel spring is finally here with the appearance of the actual Sun for the first time in a good while.
This weekend was awesome, a fun filled family weekend. Friday night Jay and I looked after my baby niece :o) Molly Mo was good as gold, 9 months old and virtually sleeping through the night! I fed her, put her down for sleep and then we did home made pizzas! Yum! Little Mo woke up around 11:30 but I soon picked her up and gave her a cuddle and she fell back to sleep on me. She's soooooo cute. Jay and I got to bed around 1am which was late because let's be honest i'm old now so anything past midnight is unthinkable.
Saturday was Dad's birthday, reaching the age of 51 has not changed my Dad in the slightest he's every bit as emotional as he was before. I made him a 'Father/Daughter' collage of photos from when I was born to pretty much now and he shed a few tears when he opened it, bless his cottons! ;-) Mum spent the day making food and cleaning in preparation for our guests in the evening. Abby, Caroline, Dad, me, Grandad Ken, Dave, Lyn, Anne & Vic all went to The Still and West for a few drinks before hand then the evening was spent with most of Dad's side of the family who joined us for a Chilli Con Carne, with dips, tortillas and pretty much everything else you can find in Morrisons & Sainsburys. The Vanilla vodka I bought from Asda last week was a definite hit, bring back Vanilla Coke! That stuff was amazing. Tad sickly after a while though so had to naturally move to regular vodka. People left around 11 and I was in bed at an earlier time than Friday night though drunk so basically I felt exactly the same.
Yesterday was the best weather of the weekend. Jay and I went to Waterlooville in search for some smart shoes though with no luck drove out to the country and went to The Chairmakers for a drink. Then went to Morrisons and bought some Tomato Chutney & Mozzarella burgers. Went home in hope of watching a film though the XBox was mugging us off a treat so that had to go off. Instead of educated myself with a lovely film instead I fell asleep for 2 hours. Not really sure how that happened, I woke up and Jay was no where to be found. Turns out he'd had a shower & cleaned his room. Was I in that much of a deep sleep!? Waking up with no one there bought back memories of Pontins in the early 90's. Parents left me in the chalet whilst they went out on the complex, I woke up, nobody was there and I pretty much went MENTAL. Explains a lot. Madeline McCann?!
Anyway I got up this morning in a rush and in haste made a ham and cress sandwich (exciting) and forgot the marvelous news that today is team lunch day and we're going to Pizza Hut! So the sandwich will have to go in the fridge for tomorrow. To make is worse Sheila has bought in a selection of Krispy Kreme doughnuts which I absolutely will not touch. (not at this time of the morning anyway) Really trying to stay away, why must these things tempt me :(
This weekend will be spends with friends on Friday, Lunch with Mum on Saturday and Sunday some sort of relay between houses for Mother's Day!
Wednesday, 29 February 2012
Let March Begin!
We are now on the road to happiness! Well, happier times at least.
Last week was pretty crap, in fact February has been a bit of a dire month all in all. Monday we attended Jay's Grandad's funeral. It was a nice service, hearing about his life was a particular high point. I liked hearing how his Son's friends would call on him to come out and play football instead of his Son, hah! He was in a wicker casket which is eco-friendly and the family had picked yellow and blue flowers to represent Pompey as he was always a fan. It's awful to say it and not a very nice occasion to get together but it was lovely to see some of Jay's Family we don't see all the time.
Tuesday I made the decision to go and see my Nan. She was in the Chapel of Rest at the Co-Operative Funeral Directors in Fratton. The night before my Mum asked me if I really wanted to go, and to have a think about it. It was a really difficult decision as my Dad had chosen not to go. He'd seen her on the morning that she left us and said she looked peaceful which was enough for him so fair enough. I had seen her Friday evening when she was probably the most coherent she's been in a while but she still looked awful and when I kissed her, her face was cold. A few people said to me is that the lasting image you want to remember your nan? I thought about it and the only out come was it was either her suffering in hospital and the nurses struggling to move her over the bed as my last memory or her laying peacefully. I thought if I saw her at the Chapel and it was awful, I would probably get over it. But if I didn't go, I would forever be thinking that I should have done. My Grandad came along with my Uncle and my Great Auntie. My Grandad was very good with the whole situation and to be honest I thought I would be too. I didn't know what to expect and I honestly thought i'd just go in, hold her hand, or kiss her head and say goodbye. I couldn't even get that close to the Coffin. She looked peaceful and settled but it was so quiet in the Chapel you could have heard a pin drop and that made me feel really uncomfortable. I stood rooted to the spot for about 3 or 4 minutes and just walked out again, I couldn't even touch her. It was the most bizarre of feelings. I didn't really feel like it was my Nan, it really did feel like her soul had left the body and she was somewhere else.
Her funeral was on Thursday and there was a great turn out, out of all this it has really made me realize we should make the effort to be a little closer to my Uncle & my Cousins. We listening to Goodbye Ruby Tuesday as we left the Crematorium, I think Nan would have really liked the whole service. The wake was at the same place we had Jay's Grandad's so it was a little De Ja Vu! Again it was lovely to see lots of family members.
A rubbish week was topped off with an utterly stunning wedding. My Cousin Christopher married Charlotte at the Elvetham hotel in Hampshire and it was incredible! I've never been to such an amazing wedding! When you have a 'Sorbet' in between courses you know it's posh....It was a brilliant day, I wish we could do it all over again! :o)
Last week was pretty crap, in fact February has been a bit of a dire month all in all. Monday we attended Jay's Grandad's funeral. It was a nice service, hearing about his life was a particular high point. I liked hearing how his Son's friends would call on him to come out and play football instead of his Son, hah! He was in a wicker casket which is eco-friendly and the family had picked yellow and blue flowers to represent Pompey as he was always a fan. It's awful to say it and not a very nice occasion to get together but it was lovely to see some of Jay's Family we don't see all the time.
Tuesday I made the decision to go and see my Nan. She was in the Chapel of Rest at the Co-Operative Funeral Directors in Fratton. The night before my Mum asked me if I really wanted to go, and to have a think about it. It was a really difficult decision as my Dad had chosen not to go. He'd seen her on the morning that she left us and said she looked peaceful which was enough for him so fair enough. I had seen her Friday evening when she was probably the most coherent she's been in a while but she still looked awful and when I kissed her, her face was cold. A few people said to me is that the lasting image you want to remember your nan? I thought about it and the only out come was it was either her suffering in hospital and the nurses struggling to move her over the bed as my last memory or her laying peacefully. I thought if I saw her at the Chapel and it was awful, I would probably get over it. But if I didn't go, I would forever be thinking that I should have done. My Grandad came along with my Uncle and my Great Auntie. My Grandad was very good with the whole situation and to be honest I thought I would be too. I didn't know what to expect and I honestly thought i'd just go in, hold her hand, or kiss her head and say goodbye. I couldn't even get that close to the Coffin. She looked peaceful and settled but it was so quiet in the Chapel you could have heard a pin drop and that made me feel really uncomfortable. I stood rooted to the spot for about 3 or 4 minutes and just walked out again, I couldn't even touch her. It was the most bizarre of feelings. I didn't really feel like it was my Nan, it really did feel like her soul had left the body and she was somewhere else.
Her funeral was on Thursday and there was a great turn out, out of all this it has really made me realize we should make the effort to be a little closer to my Uncle & my Cousins. We listening to Goodbye Ruby Tuesday as we left the Crematorium, I think Nan would have really liked the whole service. The wake was at the same place we had Jay's Grandad's so it was a little De Ja Vu! Again it was lovely to see lots of family members.
A rubbish week was topped off with an utterly stunning wedding. My Cousin Christopher married Charlotte at the Elvetham hotel in Hampshire and it was incredible! I've never been to such an amazing wedding! When you have a 'Sorbet' in between courses you know it's posh....It was a brilliant day, I wish we could do it all over again! :o)
Sunday, 5 February 2012
Rest in Peace.
What a week. Warning in advance this is going to be a really depressingly shit blog entry.
Last Sunday Jay's Grandad chocked on a piece of food at the care home he was in, only to black out which bought on a heart attack. He pretty much never woke up and died on Wednesday morning. Such a lovely man, it really saddens me that the last time I saw him was Christmas Day. I take comfort that he's now with his late wife Jean who was a very influential person on Jay's life though I missed her by about a month. She passed away a few weeks before I met Jay. It makes me happy to think of them together :)
After that tragedy it really made me think about my Nan, i'd been sort of putting off seeing her in the hospital because it's really depressing and she hardly makes any sense anymore it's almost as if my actual Nan drifted away a while back and all that's left is a mere shell of a lady. It really upset me every time I saw her. Friday after work I thought I would go up because my Dad has been going almost everyday and I thought sooner or later it will be too late and I won't have seen her for weeks. I visited about 6:15pm and she was actually quite chipper, I mean she's lost about 4 stone in weight since she got ill and she looks friggin' awful but she managed to actually speak to me and she gave me a kiss bless her. I asked her if she was cold and she said "It is a bit cold" so I popped her dressing gown over her to keep her a little warmed. We said "We're off now Ruby" She says "Yeah, alright". Really was awful leaving her in her room knowing all she was doing was laying there staring at the wall, nothing to do, nothing to see, just nothing. Except laying. this was my Nan, my nan who would make me cheese and brown sauce sandwiches when I was young even if i'd already had 5. Now she couldn't do anything for herself. I stayed at Jay's Friday night after I headed out to celebrate Bridie's birthday. Woke up Saturday morning to a few missed called and a text from my Mum to Jay asking me to call my Mum ASAP. I just knew what it was. Nan passed away in her sleep at around 6am on February 4th 2012. Seeing my Dad cry is the single worst thing to see, and to see it more than once over the past 24 hours really breaks my heart.
Not to mention being royally pissed of at Jay this evening - hasn't helped. Either we're a couple or we're not, either i'm his family or i'm not. I am not interested in being left to one side every now and again.
Nan, I miss you so much already, Uncle Len & Uncle Bill must be showing you the ropes up there by now :) Sleep tight. x
Last Sunday Jay's Grandad chocked on a piece of food at the care home he was in, only to black out which bought on a heart attack. He pretty much never woke up and died on Wednesday morning. Such a lovely man, it really saddens me that the last time I saw him was Christmas Day. I take comfort that he's now with his late wife Jean who was a very influential person on Jay's life though I missed her by about a month. She passed away a few weeks before I met Jay. It makes me happy to think of them together :)
After that tragedy it really made me think about my Nan, i'd been sort of putting off seeing her in the hospital because it's really depressing and she hardly makes any sense anymore it's almost as if my actual Nan drifted away a while back and all that's left is a mere shell of a lady. It really upset me every time I saw her. Friday after work I thought I would go up because my Dad has been going almost everyday and I thought sooner or later it will be too late and I won't have seen her for weeks. I visited about 6:15pm and she was actually quite chipper, I mean she's lost about 4 stone in weight since she got ill and she looks friggin' awful but she managed to actually speak to me and she gave me a kiss bless her. I asked her if she was cold and she said "It is a bit cold" so I popped her dressing gown over her to keep her a little warmed. We said "We're off now Ruby" She says "Yeah, alright". Really was awful leaving her in her room knowing all she was doing was laying there staring at the wall, nothing to do, nothing to see, just nothing. Except laying. this was my Nan, my nan who would make me cheese and brown sauce sandwiches when I was young even if i'd already had 5. Now she couldn't do anything for herself. I stayed at Jay's Friday night after I headed out to celebrate Bridie's birthday. Woke up Saturday morning to a few missed called and a text from my Mum to Jay asking me to call my Mum ASAP. I just knew what it was. Nan passed away in her sleep at around 6am on February 4th 2012. Seeing my Dad cry is the single worst thing to see, and to see it more than once over the past 24 hours really breaks my heart.
Not to mention being royally pissed of at Jay this evening - hasn't helped. Either we're a couple or we're not, either i'm his family or i'm not. I am not interested in being left to one side every now and again.
Nan, I miss you so much already, Uncle Len & Uncle Bill must be showing you the ropes up there by now :) Sleep tight. x
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
*cough*
Hahahaha, I have stumbled upon a programme called 'The Exit List' and it is literally hilarious. I have no idea how exactly you play but two grown men have just gone home with £0. What is it with these ridiculous men like those two pricks on The Bank Job? That was utterly 'mezzin in itself. Greedy people make me giggle.
Had my ultra sound last week, which went well as I have zero issues and life is fab again. I do find it odd that the man performing the ultrasound wishes to engage in small talk with me, it is one of lifes unnecessary moments which this should NEVER occur. I don't know if you wondered Mr. Ultrasound but I don't wish to discuss the intricate details of my day to day life, nor I suspect do you want to hear about it so how about you shut the hell up?
No sooner do I find out I don't have gall stones or any other kind of illness do I develop a really shitty dry cough and a sinus infection :( I do apologise for any lost soul who has found this page by mistake and for some odd reason started reading only to find out it is the blog of a crazy miserable woman. I assure you I am not actually miserable (but I might be crazy) in fact this weekend I have some fab stuff planned. (If you like this sort of thing...) Friday night Jay and I will be indulging in a little home made pizza action! It was literally the most amazing thing the first time round. Saturday I am going to a party - Wendy's birthday party and it's set to be fun cos Tezza is going and I love Tezza! :o) Woo!
It's time to attempt sleep because I have an awfully dry throat and seem to need a drink every 5 minutes :o(
Thinking of you Nanny Ruby, xoxo
Had my ultra sound last week, which went well as I have zero issues and life is fab again. I do find it odd that the man performing the ultrasound wishes to engage in small talk with me, it is one of lifes unnecessary moments which this should NEVER occur. I don't know if you wondered Mr. Ultrasound but I don't wish to discuss the intricate details of my day to day life, nor I suspect do you want to hear about it so how about you shut the hell up?
No sooner do I find out I don't have gall stones or any other kind of illness do I develop a really shitty dry cough and a sinus infection :( I do apologise for any lost soul who has found this page by mistake and for some odd reason started reading only to find out it is the blog of a crazy miserable woman. I assure you I am not actually miserable (but I might be crazy) in fact this weekend I have some fab stuff planned. (If you like this sort of thing...) Friday night Jay and I will be indulging in a little home made pizza action! It was literally the most amazing thing the first time round. Saturday I am going to a party - Wendy's birthday party and it's set to be fun cos Tezza is going and I love Tezza! :o) Woo!
It's time to attempt sleep because I have an awfully dry throat and seem to need a drink every 5 minutes :o(
Thinking of you Nanny Ruby, xoxo
Wednesday, 11 January 2012
And begin...
HAPPY NEW YEAR.
This year is already amazing. I might have been the last one to know but one of my best friends has announced she is expecting a teeny baby! (As opposed to a miniature Hulk) Yay! Many congratulations to Charis & Dan, so pleased for them! I just grew up about 5 years in the space of 5 minutes, that starts happening when your close friends start having babies. Although that happened when they got married tbh. *freak out* It's such fab news though! Beyond excited for them!
New Year was pretty much 'mezzin. Jay and I stayed in round Abby and Ads, played games, drank shots of what tasted like nail varnish remover (always fun, or not), and danced around the living room to Cindy Lauper 'Girls just wanna have fun'. Not forgetting the Steak and Wedges we had for dinner, yum!
I had some very painful stomach issue a few weeks back. For a split second I thought I was dying then calmly realized I was not, it just hurt like HELL. What I would imagine hell to be like anyhow. It was kind underneath my ribs in the middle to the side (that is such a place...) I hardly slept one night and then I couldn't breathe properly and got myself into a right state. Anyway the doctor gave me a 'anti acid' tablet which did not do much to help. After a few days the pain died down and eventually went. The doctor was kind enough to send me for an ultrasound SIX WEEKS AFTER I ACTUALLY WENT TO THE DOCTORS. Quite frankly they're lucky i'm not dead. I would imagine that sort of thing is kind of an emergency or not considering I would be dead, no rush. So on 17th Jan I am going for my ultrasound. In the space of 4 months 2 people have asked me if i'm 'having a baby' so i'm half expecting them to find a deceased fetus. (Sorry that is gross.) I am actually not, and if they do I will go utter mental because for the last 10 months I have been harboring a Contraceptive Implant. Which next week I am getting removed, though they are making it sound like some sort of major surgical procedure which I am NOT happy about. When I walked into the clinic 10 months ago and decided to have the implant they laid me down on a bed, shoved a needle in my arm and slipped it in - but to have it out is apparently not as easy. Nobody told me this when I had it in! Pfft. I am not looking forward to that darn needle again, bloody hurt last time :( To top it off I am giving blood on Tuesday afternoon! There's my good deed for the day!
Back to the good stuff - Christmas was so great. I had dinner round Jay's parents house with Jay, Tina, Keith, Zoey, Gemma, Pete and Karen. It was awesome! The dinner was fab and we did quiz games and I even fit in a little snooze! :) We went to Damo's in the eve and I saw the two cutest girls ever - my beautiful nieces :) They're growing so much and both can sit up pretty well now. I baby sat for Molly Mo on 23rd Dec and she was fab! Jay and I played with her for a while, she loves grabbing stuff and looking at herself in the mirror! I fed her a bottle, and put her to bed and we didn't hear a peep out of her all night :) In my world I would hope all children are like this, sadly I do not think it is the case. Boo.
Swimming tomorrow with Victor, Friday night in with Jayboy watching Never Let Me Go & American Horror Story. I MIGHT let him get me to watch Boardwalk Empire although I have heard mixed reviews. Saturday night, with a quick change of my plans I am going to see Charis with the girls. Woohoo!
Millie Dog is here and I love it, she hasn't stayed here for ages! :) Hasn't tried to creep up to my room yet, good doggy! :)
THIS BLOG HAS BEEN GOING FOR ALMOST 5 YEARS! Crazy.
This year is already amazing. I might have been the last one to know but one of my best friends has announced she is expecting a teeny baby! (As opposed to a miniature Hulk) Yay! Many congratulations to Charis & Dan, so pleased for them! I just grew up about 5 years in the space of 5 minutes, that starts happening when your close friends start having babies. Although that happened when they got married tbh. *freak out* It's such fab news though! Beyond excited for them!
New Year was pretty much 'mezzin. Jay and I stayed in round Abby and Ads, played games, drank shots of what tasted like nail varnish remover (always fun, or not), and danced around the living room to Cindy Lauper 'Girls just wanna have fun'. Not forgetting the Steak and Wedges we had for dinner, yum!
I had some very painful stomach issue a few weeks back. For a split second I thought I was dying then calmly realized I was not, it just hurt like HELL. What I would imagine hell to be like anyhow. It was kind underneath my ribs in the middle to the side (that is such a place...) I hardly slept one night and then I couldn't breathe properly and got myself into a right state. Anyway the doctor gave me a 'anti acid' tablet which did not do much to help. After a few days the pain died down and eventually went. The doctor was kind enough to send me for an ultrasound SIX WEEKS AFTER I ACTUALLY WENT TO THE DOCTORS. Quite frankly they're lucky i'm not dead. I would imagine that sort of thing is kind of an emergency or not considering I would be dead, no rush. So on 17th Jan I am going for my ultrasound. In the space of 4 months 2 people have asked me if i'm 'having a baby' so i'm half expecting them to find a deceased fetus. (Sorry that is gross.) I am actually not, and if they do I will go utter mental because for the last 10 months I have been harboring a Contraceptive Implant. Which next week I am getting removed, though they are making it sound like some sort of major surgical procedure which I am NOT happy about. When I walked into the clinic 10 months ago and decided to have the implant they laid me down on a bed, shoved a needle in my arm and slipped it in - but to have it out is apparently not as easy. Nobody told me this when I had it in! Pfft. I am not looking forward to that darn needle again, bloody hurt last time :( To top it off I am giving blood on Tuesday afternoon! There's my good deed for the day!
Back to the good stuff - Christmas was so great. I had dinner round Jay's parents house with Jay, Tina, Keith, Zoey, Gemma, Pete and Karen. It was awesome! The dinner was fab and we did quiz games and I even fit in a little snooze! :) We went to Damo's in the eve and I saw the two cutest girls ever - my beautiful nieces :) They're growing so much and both can sit up pretty well now. I baby sat for Molly Mo on 23rd Dec and she was fab! Jay and I played with her for a while, she loves grabbing stuff and looking at herself in the mirror! I fed her a bottle, and put her to bed and we didn't hear a peep out of her all night :) In my world I would hope all children are like this, sadly I do not think it is the case. Boo.
Swimming tomorrow with Victor, Friday night in with Jayboy watching Never Let Me Go & American Horror Story. I MIGHT let him get me to watch Boardwalk Empire although I have heard mixed reviews. Saturday night, with a quick change of my plans I am going to see Charis with the girls. Woohoo!
Millie Dog is here and I love it, she hasn't stayed here for ages! :) Hasn't tried to creep up to my room yet, good doggy! :)
THIS BLOG HAS BEEN GOING FOR ALMOST 5 YEARS! Crazy.
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