Went a bit out of my mind yesterday, had a small panic when I realised I was feeling very frustrated about the current 'stand still' of my relationship. I'm ready for the next step people, and talking about it and taking no action is reeeeeally frustrating and making me think all kinds of crazy things.
Jayboy knows how I feel, I just need him to talk to me a bit more, you know? You don't know, you're not even anyone, you're thin air. New all time low; speaking to thin air.
I just wanna start building a life and living something new rather than the same old day in, day out gaggle that is currently going on. I'm not into rushing, but I am into security. Imagine if this went as tits up as the last time I really opened my heart up, not sure I could take it to be honest!? He's right though, I do worry too much. Let's just all take a chill pill and look forward to the next 6 months. Got a weekend away in London to look forward to, along with Christmas shopping and some lunch. Gotta love lunch.
On a completely separate a sad note - Great Uncle Bill passed away on Saturday. At the grand age of 94, he was a legend. I hadn't seen him for a while but Sheila, Shirley and Bill still send me a Christmas gift every year, so sweet of them. He was Grandad Ken's last remaining sibling which is so sad for Grandad. 8 Brothers & Sisters and he's the last one standing. I am glad Bill passed on peacefully in his sleep, with no pain and that Sheila and Shirley were there with him at the end.
Rest in Peace Uncle Bill :o) You will be missed by all The Green's!
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