Grasstennis ftw.

So, the weekend was AWESOME.

I saw so many bands and had so many fun times. Reading 2009 anyone?

I think my favourites were Foals, Wombats and Killers. Foals blew me away, I was watching them with Tom and he pretty much hates them so was a little hard for me to get into it but they were so good! Also I think we found worlds worst dancer whilst watching Foals, I have actually never laughed so much, he looked like a small boy who needed the toilet. It was pretty hard to stay with everyone all day and when you got lost there was almost no chance of meeting up again unless you went back to camp and they were there. So I watched Wombats by myself and it was amazing! I fucking love the Wombats, their set went way too fast for my liking though. Everyone was singing along to every one of their songs, I loved it! Vampire Weekend were on before Wombats and it was the first time i'd seen them. The sounds wasn't so good at the side but i'm pretty sure they were bloody awesome. 'Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey!'

Tom and I watched Biffy Clyro together, I didn't think they were as good as last year. Bands on smaller stages are sometimes better. I caught the end of We Are Scientists after I watched some of The Ting Tings, both were really good. I really wish they were on at different times because I would have liked to have seen both set fully. Bloc Party were a little disappointing, especially since last year they were really amazing. I carried on the laughing during Bloc Party which made it all better talking about hunting for bitches, and Kelle getting his cock out after he said 'Now time for a surprise'. Bahaha.

I watched half of Rage but I was by myself and wasn't really feeling it. I thought they sounded pretty amazing though but i'm not a die hard fan so I left. Saturday Tom and I watched the whole of the Killers, they were incredible. Brandon had the most dapper suit i've ever seen on! I think I love him a little bit. Before that was Alkaline Trio, I would have enjoyed that a lot more if I didn't have a girl screaming in my ear. I swear she was trying to have sex with me at one point, kind of thrusting against me. Wrong in a lot of senses. Every 2 minutes she was like 'woooooooooo!!!!!!!!' Arrrrrrghhhhhhh!

I went home on Sunday as I totally lost Vojtech and Tom and didn't know what to do with myself. I was feeling totally run down so braved it and left with all my stuff. It was great to spend the weekend with people I don't usually see. Nice to meet Vojtech and Ashley's brothers. I'm heading to St Albans on 12th Sept, mucho drinking before Tom goes back to uni and hopefully see some people I haven't seen in a year or so!

On Saturday night I had the worst headache known to man, Voi said I was getting ill, I think he was right :( I could feel it slightly at football last night but this morning I woke up and I just feel pretty much shit. I'm going to Turkey tonight, setting off at 5pm. Flight is at 9pm, getting there about 3am local time. I'm going to be absolutely knackered when I get there and i'm not looking forward to the plane ride give my sinus state! Boooo.

Any hell, be good, don't miss me.

If you'll only, if you'll only say yes

Being alone is not fun.

I've been okay the past few weeks and the strain of a serious relationship at my age always seems to be something that bothers me. Then there's the other end of the scale where i've got zero interest from anyone.

So basically, it's a bit shit being without someone to have cuddles with, to travel with, to watch trashy movies and eat doritos & dip with, to see live music with.....asfrrekfdvnkfvg;/

Too many bad things have happened, I keep telling myself I didn't but the more I think about it the more I think I wasted 4 years of my life being with Dave. I couldn't ever see that ending and then it just, did. So basically from when I was 15 to 20 I had a boyfriend and god knows what I missed out on. Then there were a few people which are probably not even worth counting and Adam. I had such a strong feeling about Adam and I when we first got together and even though it was only 8 months or something I didn't expect that to end so soon. Then we've got now, i'm 21, I have a reasonably good job which I should be able to save money with but alas that doesn't seem to be going anywhere at the moment and that's it really. All my friends have boyfriends, are broke, have children or already live with others so if I moved out: - who the hell would I live with? My life is pretty much at a stand still and I need something to completely blow that out of the water. I thought I found that, but that's becoming more and more of a doubt :(

I'm hoping Reading will go well and I won't be left to my own devices all weekend. I'm looking forward to seeing Lauren and possibly making some new friends. Then Tuesday will arrive and i'll be off to Turkey for some proper relaxation. Although before then I have to prepare my stuff at work for F-run and that will be a mission and a half. I don't want to come back to a million credits and god knows what else. I trust Claire wholeheartedly with my work so i'm not worried there, just slightly worried a ton of stuff with flow through and nobody will notice, then we'll be in a rather massive pickle. Fingers crossed.

I'm off to watch 'The Perfect Vagina' - should be interesting if nothing else. Who in the right mind would have SURGERY on their Vagina? Some bloke just said "If you're having sex for the first time with a woman and she's got an ugly fanny, nah sorry mate as if" - HELLO?! Since when are lady bits attractive?! They're all pretty ugly in my opinion. Who spends that much time looking at it anyway? I should really stop talking about Vaginas.

Nothing sweet about me

Ooh it's all changed on the dashboard front, I quite like it.

I went to see Kojaks for the 4347829571925th time last night. I wasn't so excited about it before going but it was actually really good. I decided to drive and not drink - save money on taxis. Kojaks had added some new songs to the bill including Wombats, Muse and Foo Fighters. Real good fun.

I was probably the only sober one along with my Mum, sort of. She was tipsy. I spent my time dancing to the music but also sort of looking around at everyone. There was an awful couple in front of me that clearly needed to get a room before they ate each others faces. Not only were they blocking my view they were just pretty gross. What the heck, i'm probably just jealous. There was another couple, he was really tall and skinny and she was kind of short and fat. They looked pretty odd, but I guess odd is good. You could tell it was one of their first dates, they stood in a hugging position all night and you could tell they really liked each other and perhaps they were both thinking about kissing each other but no one making the first move. When they eventually did it was kind of like he was trying to break the world record for fasted french kiss or something, his hand kind of awkwardly placed on her face. It was all a bit horrendous, but I bet they're happy.

We left the wedgewood rooms at around 00:30, Dad still trying to claim his youth wanted to stay so there was a small disagreement, I couldn't be doing with a big disagreement so I made Mum leave. We were going to go for a shirins, then Dad decides he wants to come so we pick him up outside the venue. He was so drunk, just sort of staring and saying 'I'm not drunk' then squirting an empty plate with salad cream and wiping it up with his little finger. How bloody embarrassing. Dad drunk is hilarious when he doesn't get out of order, bahaha. Got home at around 2am, spent some time talking to Adam, not really sure what's happening there :-/

Going to Vicki's tonight for Xfactor watching and drinks, yay!

Our holiday is officially booked! £220, from bournemouth to Dalaman on Tuesday 26th August. I am so very excited to get some SUN and eat in some pretty amazing restaurants. I really hope I can get on with Mum for a week because I really hate feeling down when i'm away from home. Fingers crossed!

I've been watching the Olympics and I think swimming is my favourite event. Michael Phelps is amazing, I know he's not British or anything but he is quite clearly a machine. Rebecca Addlington has been working it for Britain. She is amazing! She's younger than me, and look how much she has achieved. Makes me feel like an incredible failure, good lord. Not that i'm expected to win 2 gold medals at the Olympics, haha. I'm definitely going to try and go to some events at 2012! I'm watching the cycling indoor drome thing, I really don't get how this works. Did I just hear them say '58' laps to go?! There's like a long line of cyclists and the person at the front of the line doesn't necessarily win. This logic is all wrong.

Helloooo some lovely, interesting, funny male come and take me away. K thnx.

This guy: ? - He wears two swimming hats! That has to earn points.

Joker

It's been a funny old day. Was without Claire at work today which was odd, seemed to get a lot done though.

I am going to sleep at 11 tonight, I am always SO tired in the mornings and I can never get out of bed at 7 when I mean to, always 7:30 and even then my eyes are almost closed walking to the bathroom. Sigh.

I think going on holiday is looking less and less likely. Flights are going up and i'm going to have literally nothing to do on my week off. Great.

I saw Batman last week, it was literally the most amazing thing i've ever seen. Ledger was sensational, watching him was like watching the Joker be the Joker, not Heath Ledger being the Joker. It was incredible. What an amazing talent to have lost so suddenly. I thought Christian Bale was quite good as Batman too, still have a secret love for Val Kilmer though....mm.

I'm not really sure where i'm going with these small paragraphs about nothing of interest. I figure this will be the last one since it wasn't really the best idea i've had.

Repetitive Shit Injury

RSI? Fucking great. It hurts like hell :( Pay back for something, can't imagine what. Repetitive Strain Injury is not fun, God knows how work is going to pan out tomorrow. Think i'll go to the Doc in the morning but then what are they going to do? I can't have time off work i'm covering Claire these next 2 weeks! Ahh!

Today will be my 3rd trip to Wembley this year, it probably isn't going to be the best out of the 3. No, wait it DEFINITELY isn't going to be the best, last time I was there we bloody won the FA cup! Nothing will ever beat that. Plus today we're playing Manchester United, not West Brom or crummy Cardiff.

Really ought to get in the bath and it hurts with every key I press...ow..hmph.

My Favourite Accident

"You said, "We were an accident."
With accidents you’ll never know what could have been.
So we were an accident,
You'll always be my favorite one.

We could have been
We could have been...
(Instead of accidental running, always running.)
Again.
Why can’t you believe?

Long winded promises of future company.
Up close the sound remains the same.
Without the reign of terror over every momentary change,
We are exactly as before."

G'day mate!

I'm watching Mcfly perform a really cool song on T4. This is my Sunday.

So last night was horrendous in a really really really good way. I've actually made wicked friends at work which have led me to other friends. Work is amazing, I actually enjoy my job and I have it all sorted; good job, good friends, good life. Yeah.

Mills, Jude and I went out last night, we left the house at 10:30pm I was starting to think there was hardly any point since it was so late but it turned out this was just the beginning of our night. Barbara was a rather nice taxi driver who told us if we were charged more than £12.70 on the way home we would be getting mugged off. To be quite honest I think we got charged about £14 on the way home, hahaha. Rats. (Sorry to divert the topic however, what on earth is the scouting for girls singer doing wearing skinny jeans on T4 on the beach? - He is far too chubby and he's bulging out the sides...shit trousers, goes with his shit band I suppose.) We went to Little Johnny Russell's where I randomly saw Abby and Adam so we had a laugh with her and I saw Vicki Black who told me I was beautiful about 20 times, always welcome. I swapped British Airways stories with a lady Mills knows as she works for them, and I do contracts for them (It's seemed pretty cool at the time but really not...) She told me she could get me an upgrade on a BA flight to Turkey, that would be okay except BA totally mug you off with flight prices and don't fly to Dalaman so little chance of that happening. We stayed in LJR's until it closed basically and had a chat with a DJ there that works in IBM in 'E Block' I made some reference to the cool people being in B Block...I have no idea what that was about. Any normal human being would have gone home at 1:30am but oh no! We got a taxi to EQ and had some reet fun. Also, not for the first time someone said they thought I was Australian - what is that about?! Last weekend we went to Yates and one of Mills' friends said they thought I was Aussie or just posh then some guy last night says "Where are you from? You sound Australian" then we proceeded to have a 30 minute conversation about Neighbours and how I lived on Ramsay Street. Alter Ego?

I slept for about 10 or 15 minutes on the toilet floor of EQ (not my classiest moment)...this was until someone reached in and grabbed my leg to see if I was alive and I realised I had to actually get up and move. I called a taxi and made everyone leave since I was starting to see double and i'm pretty sure this isn't normal unless wearing double vision goggles and I don't think I was wearing any of those. We got home at around 3:30am to Jude's and I threw my shoes in the hall way and dived in a single bed I found, apparently it was broken due to Jude and Steve having to much rowdy sex on it so I had to turf myself out and me and Mills slept in a double bed. We both woke up this morning with out clothes still on Jewelery n'all. Good lord what a hangover this morning. A frickin' awesome night though. Oh! Also, walked along trying to flag a taxi and I saw a guy with a cool hat on. I told him I liked his hat and he just took it off and gave it to me, so I have acquired a rather nice hate which I will never ever wear again because when I say 'nice' I actually mean 'stupid'.

I'm going to do more sleeping now. Bai.