Oh so blue. Life is just about the most unfair thing ever to exist. I mean I wouldn't want to end it or anything but for christ sake, I wish I knew where i'd be in 10 years time! Married? Children? Well Travelled? Who knowsssss, I hate not knowing! Grrrrrr.
So Adam and I ended what we had, i'm kind very upset about it since he is soooooo lovely. Boooo. Oh well, I can get over it, it's going to take a while because I feel so alone right now but i'll be okay in a few months. Plus something special might happen between now and then, who knows! I keep saying who knows...I should really stop that.
You know when you have someone to call yours it's like you know they love you for what you are, then when that relationship ends you have thoughts of 'Oh god, is anybody going to like me now or was that my only chance?' I am terrified of living now! Ahhh!
I've got a hot date on friday with TV and my laptop and the big wide web, bring it on! Oh god, geek.
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Wednesday, 23 July 2008
Monday, 14 July 2008
I <3 Sleep
Alright, Dave, you git.
Anyway, I had a pretty cool weekend. Friday I saw some oldddd friends, which was nice. Jim, Dan, Tom, Ferg, Mike, being the pick of the bunch. Was nice to see old Seton aswell. The Cosmic boys were pretty ace is usual, and I was surprised by Sonic Boom Six. I actually didn't mind them as much as I thought I would. Ferg being the gentleman that he is drove us to and from the gig, was well weird seeing St Albans for the first time in a good year.
Saturday Adam and I went into town and looked around all the shops, bought nothing. Although got given a rather tasty olive from a random olive market thing...yum! Bought some things for Adam's Brother's Girlfriend Aislinn, it was her birthday and we went to her BBQ later that afternoon. She was turning 21, she is younger than me! Not by much, but still she's going out with his older brother which makes me feel slightly odd, hah. The BBQ was fun, Aislinn's Mum was top drawer and her garden was MASSIVE, we even had a go on the trampoline. We left around 21:30 and went home to watch this really cool film called 'The Final Cut.' Starring Jude Law, Sadie Frost, Ray Winstone and some others about a guy (Jude, literally called Jude, they all went by their first names as the characters...weird) who dies and the whole movie is based at his funeral and his last wish is for them to see this movie he made filming them secretly leading up to his death. A bit surreal but I thought it was quite imaginative. I just bought 'Trainspotting' from amazon, I think i've only ever watched half of it so it'll be interesting to see the whole thing.
Sunday, we ate at Moon's and talked, then I went home. I hate trains, so loonnggg. I like the journey there, the way back is so painful though. Rubbish.
Becky had her baby! A little girl weighing 6lbs 8oz - I couldn't have been more wrong on the sweepstake if I tried. Hahah. She's named it 'Kiki-lee' hmmm, it's a little too close to Kiki-dee... I bet she's a cutie though, can't wait until she brings her in for 'show and tell', heheh. Remember show and tell? That was amazing.
Anyway, I had a pretty cool weekend. Friday I saw some oldddd friends, which was nice. Jim, Dan, Tom, Ferg, Mike, being the pick of the bunch. Was nice to see old Seton aswell. The Cosmic boys were pretty ace is usual, and I was surprised by Sonic Boom Six. I actually didn't mind them as much as I thought I would. Ferg being the gentleman that he is drove us to and from the gig, was well weird seeing St Albans for the first time in a good year.
Saturday Adam and I went into town and looked around all the shops, bought nothing. Although got given a rather tasty olive from a random olive market thing...yum! Bought some things for Adam's Brother's Girlfriend Aislinn, it was her birthday and we went to her BBQ later that afternoon. She was turning 21, she is younger than me! Not by much, but still she's going out with his older brother which makes me feel slightly odd, hah. The BBQ was fun, Aislinn's Mum was top drawer and her garden was MASSIVE, we even had a go on the trampoline. We left around 21:30 and went home to watch this really cool film called 'The Final Cut.' Starring Jude Law, Sadie Frost, Ray Winstone and some others about a guy (Jude, literally called Jude, they all went by their first names as the characters...weird) who dies and the whole movie is based at his funeral and his last wish is for them to see this movie he made filming them secretly leading up to his death. A bit surreal but I thought it was quite imaginative. I just bought 'Trainspotting' from amazon, I think i've only ever watched half of it so it'll be interesting to see the whole thing.
Sunday, we ate at Moon's and talked, then I went home. I hate trains, so loonnggg. I like the journey there, the way back is so painful though. Rubbish.
Becky had her baby! A little girl weighing 6lbs 8oz - I couldn't have been more wrong on the sweepstake if I tried. Hahah. She's named it 'Kiki-lee' hmmm, it's a little too close to Kiki-dee... I bet she's a cutie though, can't wait until she brings her in for 'show and tell', heheh. Remember show and tell? That was amazing.
Friday, 11 July 2008
Grim creeper
ANOTHER teenager has been stabbed and died in London. What the fuck is up with that? NINETEEN teenagers this year have been killed by knife crime. Who in the right mind takes a KNIFE out with them on a night out?! This latest guy was only 20, he died at the scene, I can't even get my head around this! Ahhh!
All I want to do is sleeeeeeeeeeeep!
I'm sat in my dressing gown getting ready for work. I should probably get on..!
All I want to do is sleeeeeeeeeeeep!
I'm sat in my dressing gown getting ready for work. I should probably get on..!
Thursday, 10 July 2008
Do you want to go to the seaside?
17:26 i'm home from work and it's been a great day!
Claire is going camping from today until monday though so buddyless for tomorrow and monday! Booo!
Going to Watford tomorrow to see Adammmm. It shall be nice especially since I get to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in literally a year at the horn for Kid Cosmic gig, yay! I'm leaving work at 1pm, coming home to get stuff ready then getting the 1:45 train. Stopping off in oxford street to topshop to buy shoes. (Yes, more shoes. :D) I shall be taking my bag on its first outing (to and from work does not count!) so I hope it enjoys it as much as I will.
Last night my computer was being such a piece of shit, so I hope it fairs better this evening. So far so good! Abby is coming round shortly to see if she can help set up IBM laptop at home. I got all the necessary things to use it but it wouldn't let me log in before, I think it's something to do with our home connection, boreeeetastic.
I'm sat here in snowman pajamas (I never saw the point of coming home and putting on clothes if you're not going out anywhere...straight to the jim jams!) and an I <3 NY t-shirt. What a combination, hahah. It's sexy, trust me.
I have just realised Motion City Soundtrack with 'Helicopter' is one of the best songs ever, well maybe not ever but certainly today! It's just made me cheery :)
Bai.
Are we ever gonna get it right? Are we ever gonna stop making sense and start pretending that we care? Hello Helicopter, are you listening?
Claire is going camping from today until monday though so buddyless for tomorrow and monday! Booo!
Going to Watford tomorrow to see Adammmm. It shall be nice especially since I get to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in literally a year at the horn for Kid Cosmic gig, yay! I'm leaving work at 1pm, coming home to get stuff ready then getting the 1:45 train. Stopping off in oxford street to topshop to buy shoes. (Yes, more shoes. :D) I shall be taking my bag on its first outing (to and from work does not count!) so I hope it enjoys it as much as I will.
Last night my computer was being such a piece of shit, so I hope it fairs better this evening. So far so good! Abby is coming round shortly to see if she can help set up IBM laptop at home. I got all the necessary things to use it but it wouldn't let me log in before, I think it's something to do with our home connection, boreeeetastic.
I'm sat here in snowman pajamas (I never saw the point of coming home and putting on clothes if you're not going out anywhere...straight to the jim jams!) and an I <3 NY t-shirt. What a combination, hahah. It's sexy, trust me.
I have just realised Motion City Soundtrack with 'Helicopter' is one of the best songs ever, well maybe not ever but certainly today! It's just made me cheery :)
Bai.
Are we ever gonna get it right? Are we ever gonna stop making sense and start pretending that we care? Hello Helicopter, are you listening?
Tuesday, 8 July 2008
Head to Head
Who knew I was so rude? I didn't. It's funny how other people perceive you to what they think you are and to what you actually are. What is the real me? Who knows. I wish I knew. I don't think anybody knows, we each have an idea of what we're like in our heads but that's probably the complete opposite of what we are, or something, I don't know.
Monday, 7 July 2008
Always Remembered.
May those who lost their lives in the 7/7 London Bombings rest in peace. Never forgotten, always remembered.
Sunday, 6 July 2008
Emily's Boutique
Basically i've bought the most beautiful bag ever to exist.
Mine has a different charm to this as they're all customised, it's soooo pretty!!!
I've been watching the tennis and I actually think Rafa is gonna win, I really hope he wins!! I like Roger and it's almost impossible to hate him because he is such a nice bloke. Grrr. Quite annoying actually. Nevertheless, c'mon NADAL!
Dad's home, popping in before he's off to north Devon for summit. Mum and I have some tasty treat from marks & spencers. We're posh don't you know :P
Anyway this blog is crap and short, I really just wanted to rave about my new bag for a bit.
Mission accomplished... :P
xx
Mine has a different charm to this as they're all customised, it's soooo pretty!!!
I've been watching the tennis and I actually think Rafa is gonna win, I really hope he wins!! I like Roger and it's almost impossible to hate him because he is such a nice bloke. Grrr. Quite annoying actually. Nevertheless, c'mon NADAL!
Dad's home, popping in before he's off to north Devon for summit. Mum and I have some tasty treat from marks & spencers. We're posh don't you know :P
Anyway this blog is crap and short, I really just wanted to rave about my new bag for a bit.
Mission accomplished... :P
xx
Tuesday, 1 July 2008
The L word
"Love, like a river, will cut a new path
whenever it meets an obstacle."
"When you love someone,
all your saved-up wishes start coming out."
"Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful."
"Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds
and warming your soul."
"To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world."
"My pillow.
Enveloping me in your soft folds of comfort.
Eyes closed, your gentle caress soothes my concerns
and carries my thoughts to a bed of pure contentment.
Completely satisfied, I lay in your sweet embrace,
longing to remain indefinitely.
This is love."
"Love reminds you that nothing else matters."
"Love is like a piece of art work,
even the smallest bit can be so beautiful."
"Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock
because when it goes off the first time in the morning
the thoughts of your loved one
make it impossible to fall back asleep."
whenever it meets an obstacle."
"When you love someone,
all your saved-up wishes start coming out."
"Love is like a mountain,
hard to climb,
but once you get to the top
the view is beautiful."
"Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds
and warming your soul."
"To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world."
"My pillow.
Enveloping me in your soft folds of comfort.
Eyes closed, your gentle caress soothes my concerns
and carries my thoughts to a bed of pure contentment.
Completely satisfied, I lay in your sweet embrace,
longing to remain indefinitely.
This is love."
"Love reminds you that nothing else matters."
"Love is like a piece of art work,
even the smallest bit can be so beautiful."
"Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock
because when it goes off the first time in the morning
the thoughts of your loved one
make it impossible to fall back asleep."
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