OH MY GOD. I am going to explode. I have been refraining from venting immensely on this here blog so's not to sound like a total angry little elf but i'm afraid I can no longer hold it in.
Never have I ever been around somebody so nosey! The bloody nose is the size of the grand canyon and really they are blameless because it just sticks itself in where it's not wanted. I can handle it, but when it's there 5 days out of 7 it REALLY BEGINS TO GRATE.
I could write more. Believe me I could write reams and reams about how mind numbing annoying it is to be subjected to this day in and day out. Alas, I feel it's not good for my positive energy or anybody else's for that matter.
Let's move on to a friendlier and more welcome note - tonight I am off to the mooooovies. Unfortunately I am so poor that I actually can't afford to have nandos before hand :o( (Boo!) however, I am going to watch Breaking Dawn (With Dawn, ha!) Okay not funny...still it is said to be a good movie, although let's be honest; sexy on the sexy scale is blowing the roof off so who cares if it's not any good!?
Tomorrow I am off round to Tina & Keith's for a curry, always welcome! Friday cinema could be on the cards again but I think it will more than likely be Sunday instead! 50/50 - Been waiting for this to come out for aaaaaages!
4 weeks on Sunday until Christmas. Help :/
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
Thursday, 17 November 2011
It's Chriiiiiiiiiiiiistmaaaaaaas! (Almost)
I urge anybody reading this to read THIS http://wiseall.wordpress.com instead. It's fucking phenomenal and P Wise is one of the funniest, most creative writers I know AND he actually does it for a living! (Sort of) I however just wallow in my own garbage (not actual garbage, that would be gross) and just write anything. Like I said to my Mother, who thinks i'm quite good (she doesn't read much)- I just write, I don't re-read or think much before I write. I just write and write. Quite often when I don't feel like writing I just start writing and it just takes me away. A bit like now...
I just got an email from Vue Cinema. "Dear Vue Member" How impersonal. How am I meant to strike up a business deal with you when you address me in such a way? Saying that, I am going to Orange Wednesday next week so their approach wasn't totally flawed. Dammit.
Anyway, I feel like this day is dragging but strangely the week itself has gone quite fast - it's only bloody Friday tomorrow! I'm going to The Farmhouse, but it has to be said I am not wearing a party dress to a pub which is going to be full of drunks and mostly trash singing Karaoke. Should be a great laugh though! Get a few drinks down me and I might pick up a mic! (Not likely)
Tonight is a night in with the best boy I know. Catching up on the second episode of "American Horror Story" which after the 1st Episode has got me hooked! Loving it! It's all a bit strange and a teensy be scary at times but what would you expect from a programme with 'Horror Story' in the title? Exactly. Fishcakes and Wedges, a meal fit for a king. I'll take it! 11:39 - 20 minutes until I can go to lunch and get outta this joint, could go now but let's be honest it's a better deal to get back later, less time until home time then!
I can't believe I have written all this garbage (again not actual garbage, gross) and i've forgotten to document my first experience babysitting a 5 month old! Saturday night I looked after the one and only Summer Shawyer. She has a routine, bed by 7pm and usually wakes up around midnight or just after. Just my luck, Damo & Cags went out at 8pm, Sumsy woke up at 8:20! Bless her little rosy cheeks, she cried and cried. Poor little poppet was hungry, restless and no amount of jigging and bouncing could calm her for more than 2 precious minutes! Her poor little face, all red and her eyes weary. If only she liked Formula :o) Alas, she is not fond of the stuff so Cagsy had to return from the pub to feed poor Sums, and then she went back to sleep and didn't wake for the rest of the night! Phewph! A bit of a ordeal, but I don't think I did tooooo badly! Auntie Ems :o) Woo!
I didn't think it was possible to have so much love for two little ladies. They are still the best things since the ever famous sliced bread. Can't wait for Christmas! Jingle Bells Jingle Bells....
I just got an email from Vue Cinema. "Dear Vue Member" How impersonal. How am I meant to strike up a business deal with you when you address me in such a way? Saying that, I am going to Orange Wednesday next week so their approach wasn't totally flawed. Dammit.
Anyway, I feel like this day is dragging but strangely the week itself has gone quite fast - it's only bloody Friday tomorrow! I'm going to The Farmhouse, but it has to be said I am not wearing a party dress to a pub which is going to be full of drunks and mostly trash singing Karaoke. Should be a great laugh though! Get a few drinks down me and I might pick up a mic! (Not likely)
Tonight is a night in with the best boy I know. Catching up on the second episode of "American Horror Story" which after the 1st Episode has got me hooked! Loving it! It's all a bit strange and a teensy be scary at times but what would you expect from a programme with 'Horror Story' in the title? Exactly. Fishcakes and Wedges, a meal fit for a king. I'll take it! 11:39 - 20 minutes until I can go to lunch and get outta this joint, could go now but let's be honest it's a better deal to get back later, less time until home time then!
I can't believe I have written all this garbage (again not actual garbage, gross) and i've forgotten to document my first experience babysitting a 5 month old! Saturday night I looked after the one and only Summer Shawyer. She has a routine, bed by 7pm and usually wakes up around midnight or just after. Just my luck, Damo & Cags went out at 8pm, Sumsy woke up at 8:20! Bless her little rosy cheeks, she cried and cried. Poor little poppet was hungry, restless and no amount of jigging and bouncing could calm her for more than 2 precious minutes! Her poor little face, all red and her eyes weary. If only she liked Formula :o) Alas, she is not fond of the stuff so Cagsy had to return from the pub to feed poor Sums, and then she went back to sleep and didn't wake for the rest of the night! Phewph! A bit of a ordeal, but I don't think I did tooooo badly! Auntie Ems :o) Woo!
I didn't think it was possible to have so much love for two little ladies. They are still the best things since the ever famous sliced bread. Can't wait for Christmas! Jingle Bells Jingle Bells....
Thursday, 10 November 2011
Pow, right in the kisser.
I recently went to a party where manya mental conversations were had regarding afterlife, space, 'ying & yang' and to be honest i'm more of a living in the real world kind of girl. However, the past couple of days have seen me go into a kind of subconscious trance where I don't know what is real and what's not.
I have come to the conclusion that I will never be happy, at least not in this life. I just have to make the best with what i've got. <---- Did I seriously just write this? One part of me thinks that nobody is ever 100% happy, people are just lucky. The other half thinks nobody should ever have to settle for being 'okay'. Which is right? And where is the middle ground? Is there a middle ground?
I love a romantic gesture, but is there actually a single man out there who does things because they love someone, not because they want something? By 'something' I mean gratitude or to feel good about themselves. I am turning into a cynical old woman and as a result I don't think there are any selfless good deeds.
God I need to get a life! Be a bit more care-free, I say this too often and I always revert to the same uptight crazy person who worries too much. Who on earth would want to be with someone like that? How am I meant to change? Should I change? It always ends up the same, nice on the outside, not so nice on the inside. So it'll probably work out in the future that I have lots of short term friends but not very many long term friends. It will also mean I will end up a lonely old spinster with a house full of cats. I also have a huge issue admitting i'm wrong, if anyone ever reads this I could be in trouble, ha! In all seriousness, it's things like that, that ruin my relationships with people and it absolutely kills me :(
I've got a boy who tells me he loves me, leaves me notes under my pillow and cuddles me on the sofa. That's all I need right? I just wish he'd go that extra mile. Sometimes I feel like i'm putting 200% in and getting 2% back. Should relationships even be like this? Is every relationship like this? Should relationships be effortless or do they need work? I think the latter, but maybe not night shifts. I should really stop being such a mentalist and get on with the here and now.
London is just around the corner and it will be a lovely weekend away :o) To be honest, for me it's more of the holiday blues which is getting me a little down. Florida feels like it never even happened. Hmph.
Bring on the next holiday!
I have come to the conclusion that I will never be happy, at least not in this life. I just have to make the best with what i've got. <---- Did I seriously just write this? One part of me thinks that nobody is ever 100% happy, people are just lucky. The other half thinks nobody should ever have to settle for being 'okay'. Which is right? And where is the middle ground? Is there a middle ground?
I love a romantic gesture, but is there actually a single man out there who does things because they love someone, not because they want something? By 'something' I mean gratitude or to feel good about themselves. I am turning into a cynical old woman and as a result I don't think there are any selfless good deeds.
God I need to get a life! Be a bit more care-free, I say this too often and I always revert to the same uptight crazy person who worries too much. Who on earth would want to be with someone like that? How am I meant to change? Should I change? It always ends up the same, nice on the outside, not so nice on the inside. So it'll probably work out in the future that I have lots of short term friends but not very many long term friends. It will also mean I will end up a lonely old spinster with a house full of cats. I also have a huge issue admitting i'm wrong, if anyone ever reads this I could be in trouble, ha! In all seriousness, it's things like that, that ruin my relationships with people and it absolutely kills me :(
I've got a boy who tells me he loves me, leaves me notes under my pillow and cuddles me on the sofa. That's all I need right? I just wish he'd go that extra mile. Sometimes I feel like i'm putting 200% in and getting 2% back. Should relationships even be like this? Is every relationship like this? Should relationships be effortless or do they need work? I think the latter, but maybe not night shifts. I should really stop being such a mentalist and get on with the here and now.
London is just around the corner and it will be a lovely weekend away :o) To be honest, for me it's more of the holiday blues which is getting me a little down. Florida feels like it never even happened. Hmph.
Bring on the next holiday!
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