What a difference a year makes, no?

Do you remember the things you were worrying about a year ago?
How did they work out?
Didn't you waste a lot of fruitless energy on accout of most of them?
Didn't most of them turn out all right after all?

The things I was worrying about a year ago, were not things to be worried about. The things I was thinking exactly a year ago, i'm still thinking about today and for this reason I should possibly be slightly worried. I've always wanted to be such a care free person, live life to the full, not care what anyone else thinks etc. I suppose I do, do this to an extent, but not as much as I would like. How did it work out? Well it worked out possibly the worst anything could work out ever. If anyone is thinking that i'm making no sense or waffling on about a load of rubbish then you'd be right but I don't write this down for anybodys benefit but mine. Didn't you waste a lot of fruitless energy on account of most of them? Yes, I absolutely, 100%, did. Although, even though I definitely regard it as the biggest waste of my time, I don't think I have any regrets. (Yeah, I appreciate that doesn't make any sense either.) Didn't most of them turn out all right after all? No, no it definitely did not. Maybe for one party but not the other. It's a difficult feeling to keep detained, to keep down, to keep and never let up. I'm pretty sure this isn't the way things are suppose to turn out.

Aside from any old emotions, I am really enjoying the seasonal weather. It's got that cosey wintery feel. It's freezing cold outside, I can't wait for it to get colder! I'm going to purchase big scarves and thick jumpers! Also a pair of boots is must, going to spend a teensy bit of cash on those! The air has that winter smell, which i'm sure is probably some sort of pollution but it works for me. Soon it'll feel just like last year;- aimlessly driving around in the 205, listening to Kings of Leon, over thinking everything and singing at the top of my voice.

As for the present it's the balti house and albert road visit tonight. Yay!

P.S - It's hidden very well these days.