Millie Moo.

So we had the new dog at our house last night, she is amazing. I didn't think I would pick a dog such as Millie but she's quality - really playful but when you're bored of throwing a ball she's knackered anyway and would prefer to lay on you and sleep.

Check her out -


So damn cute.

ONE WEEK and it's Christmas Eve. I'm pretty freakin' excited this year because for once i've had enough money to buy people some pretty great gifts. I seriously, seriously would prefer to see people open what i've got them than anything anyone's got me. The look on someone's face when they open something unexpected is class, especially since i've put a lot of effort in this year! I got the dog a PFC dog bowl. This dog gets cooler by the minute.

Probably gonna hold back on the blogging until after Christmas now, it's been a good ish year. Started off pretty horrendous with the way I was feeling but i've gradually become so much better. There is something I quite dislike about NYE mostly because it seriously feels like you're having to let go of something you've spent a whole year doing. I'm not actually sure what I feel like i'm letting go of but I always have this empty feeling at midnight on NYE until the next day when i'm almost always fine again. PLan is to probably get really drunk and it hopefully won't be that bad.

I spent the entirety of this year being single with the exception of knob jock, yes you know who you are. But I think, I THINK i'm okay with this. Hell I should be okay with it, it's been long enough. Maybe 2010 is the year of the dashing gentlemen to whisk me off my feeeeet!?

Sniffle me Timbers

So the annual sniffles is upon me. Pretty rubbish couple of days, bunged up to the max and may aswell have vick's vapour rub coming out my ears.

I LOVE wearing clothes that are now massively too big for me, even if I do look like an absolute dork. After getting on the scales yesterday it's official I have lost an actual stone. Yeehar. Gotta lose another...with Christmas coming up this isn't looking that promising, oh well.

(I wish I bought the vapour rub to work...)

I'm very annoyed that Gossip Girl and One Tree Hill are taking a 'mid season break' or some shit. This was my Tues, pretty much depended on Chuck and Blair, booooo up yours CW! Yes, I do realise that was a bit sad, but what're you gonna do?

Watched a weird film last night called 'Hunger' on channel 4. Basically about a load of Irish Republicans in Prison going on hunger strike to fight for their rights. Was disturbing to say the least. I say disturbing as there was lots of naked men getting thrown around and beaten as well as two naked men in a prison cell smeared with poo. Now correct me if i'm wrong but that is FUCKING DISGUSTING. Having said this, I stuck with it and watched the entire thing - there was an epic scene between the guy leading the hunger strike and a priest which was pretty much the longest scene i've ever seen in my life spanning about 20 minutes. It was highly unnerving watching Sands starve himself, becoming so frail he couldn't hold his own body weight up. I thought if people go on hunger strike you pin them down and feed them through a tube? Obviously not. Anyway, crackin' film, not for the faint hearted.

Back to ye olde drawing board.

I wonder...

It's been a reflective Sunday. We put the Christmas decoration's up, realised it was too late to go to Sainsburys, have just now put homemade chips in the oven - with the skins on. Yum!

I've just been sitting here for the past 15 minutes wondering a few things. I know i'm only 22 years old, yadda, yadda, yadda but it's kind of difficult when i've got a Brother who 28, married, lives in a house he's built up to be an amazing family home and a Sister who's 30, owns 2 houses, is about to get married to her long term boyfriend in Turkey and has prettymuch one of the most exciting jobs ever. Then there's me, 22, failed at moving out, now live back at home (in the spare room because we have dead rats, and who's flies invade my actual room.), single and wondering what's going to happen next. I've got some amazing friends, who are lucky enough to be in great relationships and I somehow always feel like the one who's everyones 'best friend'. I love being a best friend but seriously? I don't know if i'm doing something wrong...? I got out of a 5 year relationships and was then at a complete loose end, went into another relationship I thought would be awesome but then never turned out to be awesome at all. I feel like i've definitely waited long enough for Mr.Right or at least the next person in the quest to ultimately end up with this person. Lonely is not even the right word, i'm not sure what is. Sometimes I feel like I should be finding myself in London, a job I actually enjoy and some brilliant discoveries. Me in the big city, or perhaps i'll end up small town girl from Portsmouth. It would make it so much easier if I actually had a clue what was going to happen in the future.

Wow, that was deep, sorry.

Ferris' Day Off

Yesterday was plain shitty.

Sat at work around 11am and got a text from Mum telling me Damien and Caroline had decided to have Ferris put to sleep. Almost immediately burst into tears, looked bloody ridiculous with people thinking the most tragic thing ever had happened. To be fair it is pretty tragic to us, he was one of the family. Sara took me outside and gave me a hug which was lovely of her. I went home at 3pm to work from home for a couple of hours, spent a bit of time with him before they took him to the Vets.

It's actually making feel incredibly sad writing about it. He looked so peaceful laying down in our house on the quilt all sleepy. I gave him lots of hugs and as he usually doesn't like people getting too close to his face he was surprisingly good letting me give him a small kiss on the head. He was the best freakin' dog anyone could ask for, an absolute legend. He was a grand age of 17 which i'm pretty sure means he should have been getting a telegram from the Queen anytime soon.

Caroline was absolutely beside herself, this was very VERY upsetting to see. Ferris was loved so very much but all the family but we all know it was genuinely the right thing to do, he was struggling to carry his own weight even though he only weighed as much as a feather since he was so thin.

Ferris you were absolutely brilliant and I miss you ever so much already. You touched all our lives and for this we thank you, you will never ever be forgotten :-)

Scotty McScotsman. Unlucky.

So I went to the Slug and Lettuce on Monday for our work xmas meal, pretty much to be expected. Alright food, cheap price, good company. Apart from sending the starter back since it was stone cold it was a success. Little did I know the night of sleeping ahead of me was going to be pretty bad, woke up at around 2:45 and felt horrendously sick. Ended up sleeping almost sat upright which is never fun. Went to work in the morning sat there like a complete mong and ended up going home at 3:45pm. Went to see White Lies last night so definitely needed some sleep or something to at least get me through that. Felt sooooooo much better after a sleep and quite enjoyed WL. Was lacking a bit of atmosphere at first but soon got going. Bumped into Calum, Karen, Lynn, Stu, Val and Kev and then Stokesy. Was good to see all!

Last nights sleep was amazing, to say the least. Decided to come into work early this morning so got in about 08:20am to people saying 'Why are you in early?' like that's normal time for some people but I tend to stroll in about 9:15! Ooopsy.

Now, one of the best things ever happened today. For so long I tease Scotty (Martin) about his Scotty Scot Scot name and he dislikes this but today he chose to CALL HIMSELF Scotty. It was glorious. My work here is done.

Now that's out the way what the flying fuck is up with this weather?! FREEZING my arse off yesterday. It's simply not acceptable. Having said that it is about 23 days til Christmas so I suppose it is generally expected to be cold at this time of year. No ice on the car this morning was a small bonus, thanks God.

Seeing Dawny today and going to see Law Abiding Citizen tonight, should be good. Gerard Butler. That's all i'm going to say. On a side note, I can't believe i'm going to say this but I think i'm definitely too old for 3 day benders. I can't even remember if i've ever done that before at least now I know I can not handle that whatsoever. I still think i'm recovering now. Had to be done for Calvin though to be fair. Ahhhhh, Calvin. Still totally stoked.

Lots of good things to look forward to in the coming weeks. Bournemouth this Sat, London on Sun with Henners, Work xmas party 10th, exchanging of secret santa gifts with my bestests and then Christmas Day. Plenty to keep me entertained. Yippee!